Hello there! I can't begin to tell you how happy I am to be here.
I just had a more than rotten 2 day journey with my nasty one or two times a year visitor.
Vertigo.
You may have heard of him in my life before.
I don't like him at all.
He is not welcome.
He tries to do me in every time he visits.
This time was one of the rottenest.
I quite honestly, did not think I would make it back to the world of non-spinning this time around.
But, here I am, taking baby steps back into the real world.
The only good thing about this, is the renewed sense of life I get, after I start to feel better again.
How every thing in the world like, birds, trees, dogs, sprouts, seeds, mom, dad, sister, brother, Lovee, granny, grandpa, aunts, uncles, you, air, sun, here, clouds, friends and more is 200 times more important to me.
And everything else seems frivolous.
I have two fading blackish eyes from all the tiny burst blood vessels I acquired around my eyes whilst in the worst moments (think porcelain god).
I toyed with not telling you this tale.
I mean, who really wants to hear about such a thing…?
Alas, it's the truth.
It's where I've been.
It's part of my reality.
I loathe not feeling good.
I rarely catch colds.
(have not had one in 4 years)
I eat tons of healthy things.
(and non healthy things too 🙂
I like to think I am strong and tough.
But when I get those vertigo spells once a year, brought on from a head injury horse fall in 1993 and subsequent messed up inner ear, I get lost in a scary abyss.
I start to think about all the folks out there, who don't feel good regularly.
How it's so easy to take life for granted in the day to day hustle and bustle, not realizing how fragile we really are. How fleeting our time here is. How we must try to savor each moment..
How so much of what we put importance on is meaningless.
How we should be kinder to ourselves.
And, how those we love are really all that truly matters in the grand scheme of things.
Memories…
(Below, my Dad holding Miles the day I adopted him, with sis and Mom surrounding us)
Thanks to vertigo meds, I am feeling much better, and I can slowly turn my head and play with the boys.
I can eat yummy things again too.
Like sushi and buttered toast. (not at the same time)
I can walk outside, I can call my Mom on the phone.
You get lost in vertigo.
No place to turn, no relief, no thoughts about anything but the overwhelming spins and waves and twists and turns your loss of equilibrium puts you in.
Crying, hanging on to the bed as though it is spinning in space.
And, when it's over - it's blocked out, until the next time…
(hopefully not for another year. hopefully never again)
I guess what I am trying to say is, I feel compassion for anyone out there who doesn't feel 100% well. No matter what level of ailment.
That includes heartbreak and depression.
And, I guess I just wanted to share a real side of my world.
Most of the time when I tell people I have vertigo, they sort of brush me off.
And I wonder, have I ever done that to someone when they come to me, trying to tell me how they feel?
I think I have.
It's human nature…
It's hard to understand things, unless we are going through them ourselves.
So, this post is for anyone going through anything in life that's thrown a wrench at you.
Anything at all.
I am thinking about you, out there somewhere…
If you have anything you want to share, about anything you might be going through in your life, please feel free to chat about it here. I will be checking in throughout the day. Putting in my two cents.
I think sometimes, a great gift is a moment in time to share our thoughts and feelings.
I know I am grateful to be able to come here and share.
Even some very private life happenings from time to time…
Love, V
ps: Matty never left my side while I was under the weather. What a special guy… I love him so.
pss: Miles – my sleepy studio companion.
psss: Helooo! Happy Monday! I am chatting in comments. I have never done this as such before – but this is a good post to share thoughts in such a way. I posted 2 different (hopefully no too long) comments so far ;) my second one is way at the end, on the 2nd comments page.
sooooooo sorry you had to suffer……………I used to have migraines from age 13 to 49 once a month for 3 days & it isn’t vertigo but you aren’t so afraid of death when you’re in that much pain! My Grandmother used to have vertigo & would go to bed for weeks and lose 20 lbs each time (hers was from a car accident) She could not fly in a plane because of it……
have you thought about trying acupuncture? (maybe you already have) I wish I had discovered it sooner……..
what are you building in the garden? XoXo to you……….
Vanessa:
I actually know exactly how you feel. It’s very difficult to explain to someone just how horrible a bad bout of vertigo is…it’s like you lose complete control over everything in your life. You can’t do anything but stay in bed and well…..throw up in a bucket!! I have it as well. Mine is an inner ear problem and it’s called Benign Positional Labyrinthitis. It is a horrible and terrifying experience to have a bout of this and no matter how many times you’ve been down with it, it’s still terrifying. My dad had it as well. I take meds every morning before I get out of bed and I carry them with me everywhere I go out of fear that I might be struck while in public.
When I have a bad spell of vertigo, it truly does make me realize that there are folks out there that feel bad on a daily basis. What a horrible and sad thing.
I’m glad that you’ve made it through and you’re feeling better. Take it easy and don’t move your head to fast. Also, if it’s an inner ear situation, be aware of the barometric changes. I can tell when the barometer is changing by the pressure and wee little dizzies in my ears.
Love
Kim 🖤
Gerushia’s New World
Oh my V, I am so glad to hear your better! And yes, hopefully never again.
I had a really bad flu one years and my head was dizzy & spinning, not a pleasant thing at all so I can only imagine what you went through…I do hope you didn’t have to go through that alone! Take Care..hugs.
Oh you poor thing, how awful 🙁
I’m so pleased to hear that you are feeling better now, Sharon xx
P.S. Guess what…I actually put up a new blog post. I know that you and a lot of my other typepad friends have such a hard time leaving a comment, so I haven’t blogged much lately…but I gave it a whirl today!
Reading your blog always inspires me to go back to mine.
Kim🖤
So glad you’re feeling better! Hugs
Well said Vanessa~ sorry to hear about that unwelcome visitor vertigo. I’ve dealt with depression over the years and in the past year with spasms, twitching,etc that are similar to symptoms of ms. My neurologist said to keep an eye on it..so basically wait to see if things get worse or not. It can be frustrating not to have that control over ones body and kinda scary. You try to live with the symptoms but sometimes you have to excuse yourself from the party and disappear to take of yourself. I know having vertigo must be that way for you ~
Wishing you an enjoyable weekend in your beautiful garden:)
So sorry to hear that you suffer with that Vanessa, but glad it’s over for now. I don’t have any reoccurring condition like this, just days under the weather and yes, you’re right, they make us feel so much more appreciative of life when we’re well again. Maybe we have these episodes for a reason – to see the contrasts. I hope yours stays away for a very long time. All the best.
Hello Vanessa, thank you for sharing about your experiences with vertigo. I had labyrinthitis a couple of years ago and get short bouts of it every now and then. I can relate a little bit to your experiences of vertigo, I know how I felt I was falling off the world every time I moved my head. I have severe M.E. and experience severe fatigue as well as other symptoms and I can really understand your feelings around how fragile we can be. I tended to push myself very hard before I got ill, and now feel very blessed to have good days, and people I love in my life, and how important it is that we are kind and gentle to ourselves and others.. I think a person’s perspective changes when our health takes a beating. I’m so sorry to hear you’ve been going through the mill with your visitor vertigo and am glad he has packed his bags and cleared off. Sending lvoe, and kindness through the internet ether. Em x
I always enjoy reading your post and viewing all your beautiful, inspirational art. And may I not forget to mention all the fabulous photos. Todays post struck a nerve. VERTIGO. I am so happy you’re feeling better. It is a horrible experience. I totally UndErStaNd your discomfort. May it NEVER visit you again.
You are a beautiful, splendid jewel <3
So sorry to hear it was such an awful time for you.
I’m so glad you shared this. I know when you don’t feel well….you think…”is this it? Am I going to always feel this way?” And then when your injury is better…you realize how lucky you are and DO feel bad for those who don’t get better. I am so glad you are better today. I know it must be miserable to have vertigo. I can only imagine. I know that I am a good listener to all my friends so much so that they sometimes forget that I have things I am going through too. I have a tendency to just keep them to myself. Sending healing thoughts your way. I love seeing your boys playing. I have two boys myself and they are the best dogs in the world! My girls are good too…but they are little more independent. My boys are my heart.
Thank you for sharing this story. You honor us with your honesty. We are all in this together…this life on this world of ours. I once had an inner ear infection and will NEVER forget how horrible it was. It’s in the nightmare category. My heart goes out to you. I am glad you are free of it now and fingers crossed that it’s banished!! Hugs to you, Norma
Glad to hear you’re well now and that you have seen the doctor for this thing. Sounds a little scarry.
It is so nice of you be open to hear other people’s worries. I think it’s so rare these days… to find someone who’s willing to listen. You are special. Take care and rest! 😉
So sorry to hear of your down time. But I am really happy that you are on the mend and feeling much better.
Sending Good Healthy thoughts your way!!!
Wende
V. I’m so glad you’re over your attack. I have a dear friend who suffers the same malady. It truly is horrible. I don’t have vertigo but because of a near fatal illness 2 years ago I lost oxygen to my brain and I lose my balance when I try to walk. In fact, it’s comical because I look like I’m drunk when I walk, unless I use something to help me maintain my balance. I used a walker until I got sick and tired of looking like an old lady hunched over the device. I got a “grocery shopping pushcart” so now when I go out, I look like I’m going shopping (serious shopping!)instead of looking like the “drunk” that I’m not! Unfortunately, mine will never go away and is with me on a daily basis. Thank God your’s only comes once a year. Do take care and know that you are loved and adored by many……the “poop” lady.
I am so sorry for your recent misery of vertigo, Vanessa. : ( I think it was actually very sweet of you to share this with us. You are such a magical, whimsical gal who lives in an atmosphere of fairytale loveliness, and we LOVE how you bring us into that world. Sharing your difficulties with us from time to time makes us feel special, too. It makes us feel even more like your friends, albeit “cyber” ones! I am so thankful that you feel better and that you don’t experience it very often. I think it is so sweet that Matty stayed with his Mama while she was sick. That must have meant a lot to you. Now go have a joyful weekend! Love to you.
Jill – Acupuncture, my Mom is pushing me in that direction. I wonder if it would really work? Tell me about your experience with it?
Oh yes, we are building in the garden! Eeeeeps, it’s a doblingbo. Otherwise known as an invented name for something i hope turns out good, so I can show it to you 😉
Kim— OH NO! You have it too. Yes yes I think I remember you sharing that when I mentioned it once before? I feel for you, and me too. The temps changed here drastically, and the pressure in my left ear just went bazoonkers. Sigh. Well, here’s to sweet peas – btw, they did sprout, they are doing better than anything else out there (knock on wood). Fank you FANK you for telling me to plant them!! 😉
Gina – my mom just had a little spin the other day when her allergies were bothering her and she said the same thing as you… she can’t imagine having such a terrible thing. Thank you for your well wishes!! Hugs a plenty!
Sharon – May your glitter angels visit my garden while you sleep 😉
Tinker- Danka danka! and hugs back!
Christine – I am so going to put you in my well wishes hopes! Not knowing is very scary and sometimes makes things feel like they are on hold, or casts a little cloud over things. Depression is such a heavy and serious thing too. And you are right, taking time to mend and take care of ourselves is very very very important. Many good thoughts your way!
Della – you are so right, seeing the contrasts, I LOVE that!
Emma – you know first hand, and I am sorry for that. The good days are totally a blessing. I agree. I am sending a bucket of positive thoughts your way as well! 😉
Maggie – from your words to VERTIGO’S Ears 😉 HEAR HEAR!!
Melissa – you are jewel yourself!! I know this to be true 😉
Nita – aren’t the little boys just precious??? They are such Mama’s boys, I love that so much! Being a good listener is a wonderful trait, but it’s good to get things off our own chests sometimes. So we don’t explode 😉 That has happened to me 😉
Norma – Nightmare indeed. You hit the nail on the head. I hope also that he is banished forever, or at least a long good time. Thank you for supporting my hoensty. I almost didn’t post this post 😉 And yes, you had it once too, so you know. How awful. It’s amazing how ear infections can lead to vertigo as well. Our bodies are so curious…
Flavia – I don’t ever like to go to the doctor, but for some things you must. It’s true 😉 Thank you for being such a sweet soul!
Wende- I LOVE good healthy thoughts!! you rock! Down time is the pits, but today is good, hoooray 😉
Jackie – I am sending you a big huge giant bear hug. I love that you switched to a serious shopper shopping cart 😉 I might bring mine if I lived near you, and we could both have one. People give me funny things, two being shopping carts 🙂 I have to tell you, your attitude and humour is so wonderful! Thank you for sharing your truth, and for being so dear 😉
Miss Linda Diane – You are such a special friend to me! Thank you for encouraging me to go out and have a good weekend. I actually forgot it was the weekend. So I am going to take your advice now! Love, V
ps: sorry for any typos
Oh I am really glad you are coming out of it again. Horrible. My Mum got vertigo for teh first time last year and we were so worried and didn’t know what it was. Once she found out at least we knew it was not life threatening-but it is a horrible thing to have. Take care. xx
Thanks for sharing yourself and what you are going through. This way,we all get to send you extra good thoughts and prayers!
Dear Vanessa,
I am so glad you are feeling better. Vertigo sounds horrible. I have been dealing with numerous things lately as I am the primary caretaker of my mother who suffers from Alzheimer’s Disease and pulminary fibrosis (terminal). At times I have felt so helpless and alone that I have imagined that I am on an island all alone and isolated. It’s been very difficult. I have often visited your blog to step into your “perfect” happy world to take a break from my world. I guess no one’s life is perfect…All I can say is that I take life one day at a time, make some plans, but remain flexible because so often what I plan gets a monkey wrench thrown in and my plans go out the window. I am thankful for the sun when it shines, for daffodils, days when I actually have help coming so I can go to work, and for my little fur love, my dog Izzy. Canine friendship is incomparable to any other friendship and my dog always knows when I am upset or stressed. She shows her love by just being with me or bringing her toy to get me to play. I always end up laughing when we play. Life is not easy, but, I do know I am thankful for your blog. It is a ray of sunshine in my life and you are a huge inspiration to me. I hope Mr. Vertigo never visits you again!
Hugs,
aNN
Oh dear you, I feel so sorry for you for having to deal with this! Must be horrible. I’m glad it isn’t more frequent or dragged out though it must be awful when it’s going on 🙁 🙁
Sorry you have to go through that Vanessa. Honestly. I am one of the ones that have health issues that I go through on a daily basis so it’s nice to hear someone has some sympathy for people like me. 🙂 Hopefully your vertigo won’t come back but if it does remember that it is temporary and that your cupcakes, breads, flowers, paintings, dolly’s, and ESPECIALLY your puppies will be waiting for you with open arms and will be very happy when you are back in them. Xoxo
I have only experienced this after a surgery. It was horrible. I cannot even begin to imagine days worth of it. My heart goes out to you. And – to everyone around you. Nothing is worse than standing by helplessly watching someone you love experience something debilitating. I do understand the sensation of feeling like Alice falling down the rabbit hole and wondering, wondering if you’ll ever be able to make it back up – again. I do understand the thinking, “Well, what if this is IT? What if I never come back?” You have got to squash THAT thought like a nasty bug. Right Away!! I’m so glad you’re feeling better. I’m glad you posted this –
But it’s a scary thought.
Hug everyone and hold on tight, girl. The world is spinning enough on it’s own.
Hugs from Chicago
Kathy
um. did you see the post i did a few days ago?
CRAZY!!! we are definitely related.
glad you are upright again. Cowboy’s got good days and not so good days-today was a pretty good day-and we have tiny green tomatoes growing!
wuv ya.
xoxoxoxox
Glad that you are feeling better; so sorry you have these bouts. Thank you for all you do and share.
Vanessa….you might already know this, but I will share anyways. You might benefit from going to a physical therapist to learn a maneuver/technique to get rid of the vertigo. It is a proven therapy and works wonders with most people. It has to do with getting the crystals in your inner ear back into place. If you have never tried this before….I highly recommend it. Most physical therapy providers have someone in their group who can do this technique and teach it to you. Best of luck…there is nothing more miserable than vertigo.
Hugs to you….and I love your blog.
Bev
That’s is absolutely terrifying! I have issues with balance and vertigo due to a medication I was on for years and years for my skin condition. My issues don’t even scrape the surface of what you describe, but I can imagine. You are incredibly brave. I just love people who deal with terrible things and somehow come out a BETTER person when it has passed. Most people would come out bitter, not better. You are inspiring in so many ways.
My mom had an inner ear infection and had vertigo from it. IT was bad. She couldn’t stand upright and said there was a psychedelic squiggly “W” in her vision all the time. How awful that you get it yearly!
Worst feeling ever! Hope it hides and never comes back!
That sounds terrible.What you went through sounds so much awful and frustrating. I’m glad you are able to enjoy the world again. And glad you don’t have to deal with it more often.
I’ve been to see my mom today. She’s in a rehab center so she can start walking again. She’s talking much better (she had 1/2 of her tongue removed because of cancer). The walking thing is just because of her age and being in a bed for 2 weeks and it just makes her lose so much strength.
I tried your Sunday chicken the other day. I took leftovers with me to work the next day and one of my very young co-workers had to know how I made that great smelling dish:)
Oh Sweet Girly~
I’m so sorry I didn’t know you were going through this.
I can’t imagine your sweet self not being able to walk about and LOVE life like you do.
I know your fur~babies were so concerned and SNUGGLED you through the entire episode.
So sorry Sweet Vanessa.
Sometimes I feel scattered and disoriented and I don’t even have vertigo…xoxoxo
I’m so glad you are feeling better.
Sending you ooooooodles of hugs and kisses and lots of snuggles!
Hugs and LOVE and SUNNY days to YOU my Friend!
I adore you.
Doogan sends wags to your Matty and Miles.
I have had it a couple of times usually hits around June. I can feel for you.Im glad you are doing better. I think the dr prescribe me some motion sickness medicine. It was very scary and its so hard to describe how it feels.
I’m glad you are on the mend I’ve never had vertigo like you describe – sounds ghastly! I live with constant pain – scoliosis, which I’ve had two major surgeries to ‘fix’ and some days the pain means I can’t do much of anything and I feel blue. But then I have good days and I remind myself that not everyone has good days and I’m pretty lucky to have had the medical care I’ve had and the supportive family there to cheer me on. It’s important to focus on those good days and with spring finally here it certainly gets easier to do that!
All those lovely pictures of your puppies and your yard certainly cheered me up! Hope you avoid the vertigo as long as possible! I’ve a cousin who has frequent spells – he thinks his is usually brought on by alcohol and fried foods. No clue if that’s true for all kinds of vertigo but thought it couldn’t hurt to pass on the info. Feel better!!
I am glad you are feeling better Vanessa. Sometimes we need to check out for various reasons. How lucky to have those around us to love us and to be by our side. It is good to feel a sense of renewal, that life is sooo good again. Your pics of Matty and Miles make me smile. Very happy you can smile again too!:)
I’m so sorry about your vertigo, Vanessa. But I’m glad it’s gone. I do understand what it’s like to feel crappy.
I just found your blog tonight and I ADORE the magic that you create!! I linked to a couple of your pics on Pinterest, is that okay?
You have really inspired me!
Hugs,
lisa
Well my dear Vanessa, we all do have our special talents and turmoils, and its funny that when the terrible days arrive again its like you have never been there before and there is no reasoning or consoling.
At the start of my breakthru (new word for it which sounds much better!)I had vertigo mixed with what can only be described as craziness, I couldnt be anywhere, not in bed, not in my house, I was found crawling out on the lawn, freaked out by water in the shower, un able to realise who my daughter was. I think its hard for people who have never experienced something like this to understand that you cant get away from what is inside you and its such a helpless scary sensation. Mine was caused by toxins in my body, I thought I was healthy by eating lots of veges but the pesticides and sprays built up in me and that combined with stress made me crack and it made me feel like I would be better off dead. Now I have extreme food sensitivities. organic only, any slip up by my greediness for normal life will be days of crawling skin and this weird paranoia. why me? I used to cry over and over but now Im using my experience to educate and help others, I am not out of the woods and have a panic disorder but woopdeedoo it will not win, well not win all of me, I just see this as a time to stay home and appreciate the space I have created, to make magic where I am and soon it will spill over into all the other bits of my life. I wish you clarity for the next time, I made a list of what I felt were warning signs for when something was about to come up, if you have some warning it does prepare you better for the storm, and then just hold on for the ride. When chemicals are removing from my body (they let go and rush out because of the homeopathic stuff I take)I cant be reasoned with by anyone so we typed up affirmations which i stuck by my bed and I would just lie there crying reading things like “this too shall pass”, “this never lasts more than 2 days”, “I paitently move thru this process” it may sound cukoo but it so helps, you cant stop it but you can help to remind yourself that its not going to be here forever which is about the hardest thing to convince yourself Im guessing.
For vertigo I would also reccomend accupuncture and try Cranial Sacral Therapy which is done by an Osteopath, its pretty amazing stuff. Thankyou for sharing, I know when you earlier mentioned VV having V (sorry having a giggle! eek!) I wanted to know more but you never elaborated, its nice to hear the real stuff sometimes too, it makes us feel you are actually human like us and maybe not an angel fairy who is masquerading as human! but then again I could be wrong!
take care my sweet, and welcome back to happy land with all your new found comapassion, maybe you could see your vertigo as a compassion teaching retreat you take a few times a year! I think this vertigo thing needs a new spin!
thanks for the comments too, glad to see you got the seeds in..and on my birthday too, how destined, lets hope the happy gophers let them be!
xxx
sheree
PS.”Let life become your friend, and know finally once and for all that life is not a problem to be solved, but a reality to be experienced”
i’m so sorry! i hope it will never happen again!!!!
my fairy-witches are casting a protection spell on you!
Vanessa,
I’m glad you are feeling better from your vertigo. My husband has suffered from it in the past, and I know it is terrible. Thank you for thinking about others with problems. I have been very depressed since last August when my daughter overdosed on prescription meds and died. She was only 23 years old. My heart aches every day, but reading your blog and looking at your beautiful pictures (especially the ones of “the boys”) makes me feel better. Please know that you help others get through hard times. XXOO Julie
Vanessa, I am so sorry you had another bout with your vertigo. I am hoping and praying it never comes back. I don’t like to mention or complain about my condition, but I do have fibromyalgia that zaps me of my energy when I really would like to be doing things and keeps me behind on doing all the things I Such a kind post and I love what wonderful companions your babies are to you. Have a wonderful dayshould. ! Twyla
Soooo sorry u felt bad. Praying for u!!! I had surgery last week on my eye, so I know exactly what u are talking about. It really is the little things in life that matter the most. Much luv to u and yours…..
very inspirational post
Dear Vanessa,
I am so sorry that you had to endure the grips of Vertigo. I know two special ladies that deal with this fate as well. It is very debilitating indeed. So glad that you hung on(no pun intended) and got through it. As usual, you have taken this experience and written such lovely heartfelt thoughts to others. I have to tell you that I think you are a beautiful soul! Thanks for sharing yourself and experiences both happy and sad with all of us that are so inspired by you!
Glad you are feeling better.
Much Love,
Dena
Vanessa … I am so sorry to hear about your Vertigo … I can only imagine how difficult that must be for you ….
I have been having problems with the joints in my shoulders and my neck since back in September …. the pain has gotten so severe most days that all I can do is cry … the Dr has put me on some medication that is causing facial ticks so I am going to have to come off of it …. no one knows the cause of the problem …. all I know is that its difficult to lift things and use my arms and shoulders for normal every day things because doing so brings excruciating pain …. living with it is becoming quite difficult …
Thinking of you as always … its good to know that we can talk about the bad as well as the good and that someone will listen … it is quite rare these days …
HUGS AND LOVE TO YOU ~ JO
Dear V,
I think there is definitely something strange and negative in the air. I just cannot expalin what it is. Super moon maybe?
Have had very low days lately…ugh…anyway, life goes on.
I am sorry you suffer from vertigo. To be honest, I had never heard about it before. Glad you are back! You have defeated the “beast”. You’re strong!!! YAY!!!
xo
I am so sorry you were not well with your vertigo. I have only had it twice in my life, and my husband had it so bad one time he thought he was going to die from it. He was so sick, cold and clammy that he even passed out. All he could do was stay in bed all day and take Excedrin, and he drank lots of water. I think he got that way from too much stress and it caught up with him. Seriously.
I am glad you have meds to take for it…God bless meds.
Actually, all of last week I felt like the earth was on ’tilt’ itself. The weather changed drastically and it got hot, then like today, it is 15 degrees cooler, which I know weather changes can bring on strange symptoms in us human beings. I was a grouch for a few days, which isn’t my normal mind-set, and I felt it was mother nature at work going from winter into spring. Upsetting the normal equilibrium
of things. External stimuli, more ions in the air when the wind blows, can cause a disruption of the normal flow of the body.
You know, like the full moon, when wacko’s go more loony than ‘normal’. The ions tend to move more rapidly in the air, hence disrupting the flow of oxygen to the brain.
I’ve read some of this in National Geographic at some point in time.
What a precious doggie Matty was to keep you company the whole time. They really know when we aren’t feeling well, don’t they?
Well, I see other comments with like minds here about the air and other things.
Yes, let’s hope to God you don’t get your vertigo again.
Relax and breathe deep, it could be stress related to.
Blessings, and healing hugs
Miss Teresa
Oh dear Vanessa, I am so sorry to hear you were ill. I am thrilled that you are feeling better now, however. The love of a pup who won’t leave your side truly does help. I have had bouts with lightheadedness due to allergies, and I very much dislike how it makes me feel. I can imagine what happened to you is a thousand times worse. BIG HUGS. There are things that I do live with which require monitoring – but I have come to deal with that. As long as I take my little daily pill, I shall be just fine. 🙂 I hope that you spent some time just for you this weekend. Sending you smiles and lots of light! xoxo Theresa
Vanessa, I am so glad you are feeling better…vertigo definitely sounds horrifying. We have a friend who has it also but he’s pretty much got it under control with meds…I think, but I remember how it used to put him out and he couldn’t do anything 🙁 So sweet of Matty and Miles to want to make their mama feel better (oh my, that pic of Miles with your Dad is priceless…how could you not love that face and want to cuddle 24/7?! 😉
Hugs and I’m putting the juju out there for you to not get vertigo again…ever!
Jamie 🙂
oh Vanessa, that is terrible. I have a couple of bouts of vertigo, but nothing as severe as yours. I really feel for you when it strikes, it is the most strange of illnesses to explain. at least you ‘boys’ were there to make you feel better…. please take care of yourself. lots of hugs & kisses…xxx
Oh how I have missed you, my Magical Muse! Ever so sorry to hear you have been under the weather, yet delighted to see you making your way back, documenting all the beauty that surrounds you. **blows kisses** Deb
Hi there! I am back to say hello and share probably too many words 😉 Do forgive my typos in advance ~
Sarah – I feel so bad that your Mum has vertigo as well. It is such an awful thing to have. Please tell her that I feel for her on every level. xx
m – Thank you 😉
Ann – first of all, let me just say that being a caretaker is one of the most challenging things I have ever have to face to date (when Mister had his car accident). Especially caretaker to someone you love so much. I send you lots of positive wishes, that there are lots of good days during your time being an angel to your Mom. And I totally agree with your ideas about keeping wiggle room in days for anything to happen 😉 And that our furry babes add buckets of light! Love your sentiments!
Maria-Th̩r̬se Рit is awful when it is going on. And you are so right, thank goodness it is not dragged on. For that I am so grateful. Are you still in snow?
Sugar – I feel for you so, having to deal with health issues everyday. It must be so exhasuting. But your attitude seems really good, and that makes the world of difference. I get vertigo once or twice a year – and I can sort of tell when it is coming. But, hopefully, it won’t ever find me again 😉 wishing for good and beautiful pain free days for you!
Kathy, hear hear 😉 I totally agree with you. I get severe vertigo, so I get really lost in the height of it – but just like you said, I try very hard to keep lighthearted and pushing forward when it hits 😉
Rooooster – I heart you.
Sandy, thank you for being you. So kind!
Bee Haven Maven – YES, I am going to try this. I have heard of it, and am curiouser and curiouser. I would lOVE to readjust my discombobulated ear crystals. I had really bad allergies as a kid, and had 4 shots twice a week. And now i rarely get bad allergy attacks, unless I am cutting down hoards of weeds. Anyhow, that said, my Mom feels very strongly that my issue is not just the horse fall, but allergy related. You see, two other people in my family have hereditary vertigo. Mine began with the horse fall in 93 (and docs attribute it to that) – but maybe i should get my Aunt and Grandma (who suffer with it even worse than me, if you can imagine that) in the car with me and we should all go see a physical therapist, it might work wonders? Thank you for reminding me!! 😉 I am inspired to do this!
Rochelle Bee – I am so sorry that you have vertigo brought on by meds. My body has reactions as such to meds too. It’s quite interesting how the body expunges toxins… I feel for you. And I feel for you with your skin condition. I have been there, and it is the pits. Thank you for being such a kind soul!
Bellamy – Your poor Mom, yep, inner ear infections do it too. I just feel so bad for anyone that has to have vertigo, even once. It is such a helpless and horrible feeling. It’s like being on the super fast spinning tilt a whirl at the carnival, only the ride never ends. Yucky! I am so glad your mom doesn’t have it regularly 🙂
Auntie Bliss – yessss, worst feeling 😉 I agree! (well there are lots of other worse things, but in the height of vertigo, it feels like the worst 😉
Renee – I feel so so so soooo much for your mom. What a terribel ordeal to have to be going through. She is very lucky to have you. I hope her healing and walking again gets easier everyday. ps: so glad you liked the recipe! 😉
Teresa – Darling Teresa, I wish I could snuggle and hug Doogan right now!!! And just for kicks, we could sing the sun will come out tomorrow, since he is a pro at Annie on stage! You are a love!
Kathy C – YES! June is when I get it too. It was so odd to get it end March begin. of April. Do you think it has to do with pressure? With heat and humidity? I often wonder that….
Nicki – You are such an amazing person, your outlook is beautiful in light of having pain daily. Thank you for sharing your tale – and yes family makes it all the better. You are such a shining light, I had no idea you had daily pain. I am sending you wishing wells of good thought sweet Nicki. Also…
I am smiling at your cousins idea of where his vertigo comes from – while it isn’t funny at all – the alchohol and fried foods assessment made me smile because I also wanted to atribute my illness to certain things. I don’t drink alchohol (for 10 yrs) – by choice because it makes me feel so rotten – but it can make people feel all sorts of sick (and dizzy from dehydration). And fried foods are yummy but they make me super nauseous too.
However…
Actual Vertigo symptoms are due to a dysfunction of the vestibular system in the inner ear.
So, I think maybe you should encourage your cousin to have his inner ear checked out? He shouldn’t have to live with stinky awful vertigo.
Now, my mom gets horrible allergy attacks from certain wine. And I can see how if your cousin gets real sinus stuffed up with certain alchohol – it could somehow be affecting his inner ear?
But ear infections are a huge cause of vertigo too. I get my vertigo from a horefall accident in 1993 where I got thrown (long story) and slammed my head on a pile of rocks resulting in a concussion, where the doctor said my inner ear crystals got shifted, and subsequently get shifted from time to time, causing my vertigo.(Thank goodness for special vertigo meds)
Your cousin should have it checked out, can you tell I am worried 😉 I really feel for him. Love, V
Kelly – So true – I really think our loved ones make everything so much better. Here’s to renewed outlooks of goodness 😉
Lisa Gatz – I am so glad you found your way here! You are such a lovely soul!
Ravenmoonmagic – I am speechless my friend! I hade no idea… Thank you so so so much for sharing your story with all of us here. You are so brave in facing this! And to have to be so careful with what you consume must be incredible challenging as well. It sounds really scary. BUT, you are a magical fairy mermaid being, I know this to be true. And you pull your self out, and you find a way, and with that you encourage me and everyone else, I am certain. So much love to you!
Eleni – I LOVE your fairy witches 😉
Julie Barnes – Julie……my heart felt your heart pains today. I am infintiely sorry for the loss of your daughter. Your sharing of what you are going through will touch everyone who reads your words. And hopefully, you will feel all of our wishes of healing your way… We lost my aunt in a tragedy a few years ago – and although we are still sad, and cry at holidays and always feel her missing – we now can laugh and smile when we recall her as well….. The pain stays, but time makes things a hair easier…. Huge warm hugs.
Twyla, my beloved friend! I did not know about your daily pain. And why didn’t I know? because you never complain 😉 You are such a ray of goodness. May your days be filled with energy and light, as I know they already are. Even when you have slow moving days, I bet you are very busy in your mind 😉 You are so special! Love, V
Tami – I hope your eye heals quickly. I took care of a friend who had eye surgery a couple of years ago. It was so intense. So, I kind of sort of know what you are going through in a round about way – and I send huge healing vibes your way!
tkkerouac – Thanks sooo much!
Dena – You, you are such a beautiful soul yourself!! I can be rotten 😉 But you are the real deal beautiful soul! Thank you for being a sweet friend!
JO – Darling Jo, This sounds terrible… You must be going mad. Do you think maybe you pulled a muscle really really bad? Or your have a break or a fracture somewhere? I am worried, keep me posted. Love, V
Papillon Bleu UK – Dear friend, I think that any weirdness in the air could be mercury in retrograde? I don’t know too much about it – but I have friends who say this is the cause 😉 I am so glad you have never heard of vertigo! Tha is a good thing. Now, if only mini me, could really be mini Vanessa, and I could come party in your mini perfect world 😉
Miss Teresa – your poor hubby! Has he ever had his inner ear checked out? You know, veritigo stems from the inner ear. I think your are right about pressure and air and winds and all that… I mean really we are all connected earth, wind, fire— wait, isn’t that a band?? 😉 love, V
ps: You are so right! Even in AZ our weather has been insane. We had a freeze a few weeks ago that caused massive cacti to break down like skyscrapers and trees to freeze all over the city (over a ton of frozen cacti in our yard alone – and a lost beloved cactus garden) – then it got hotter than an inferno. Crazy madness for sure!!
Theresa – sweet friend, you are one of the most positive happiest souls I have ever met – and yet i had no idea you take a little pill everyday. I admire you so! Smiles and light right back at ya 😉
A Forest Frolic – Jamiekins! Yep, vert meds are the way to go. Keep that inner ear in check 😉 Miles would jump all over you if you were here!! and he would go crazy over the girls I bet!! love, V
Olive Appleby – Miss Olive, how crummy that you have had to endure any amount of vertigo at all. It is the pits. I am determined to find out why mine flares up – or why my inner ear gets out of order. I can sort of feel it coming on a few days before – but this time—– I did swing out of bed really really fast at 4 a.m. because I heard something outside… that may have been the cause…? Inner ear crystals moving! Darn things 😉 You are a love!
Hi Sweet Miss Vanessa, My prayer for you is to B-safe, B-well and B-strong. We will be thinking of you. Miss Linda, Bella and Penny Lane
This post came at a good time for sharing. Cuppa Tea (one of my furries) is sick. I am so worried about him, but instead of being able to take him to the vet, I am stuck at work all day. Not a good feeling. I know it isn’t like an emergency or anything, but I still would like to take him to the kitty doctor as soon as possible! Please send happy, magical, Vanessa-land wishes his way!
ps. Have you ever watched Arrested Development? It is a really funny show. One of the characters (played by Liza Minnelli) has vertigo, and although it is obviously terrible in real life (not funny like in the show) you might be able to identify!
I wish you a steady center, Sweet V!
What a horrible thing to have to experience. I so understand how you feel…that you know this will pass, but feel so sad for those that deal with this pain day in and day out.
hope it has all passed and you are savoring the buds and beautiful red birds.
x..x
steph
so glad Vanaessa that you are feeling better and esp for posting your health concerns..as I read your blogging friends’ post, I realized that many people suffer everyday from ill-health…a big hug and good wishes to all…thank you also for your magical posts, they give me such a positive outlook !!!Bless you..
I hope you are continuing to recover and keep feeling better and better! Make sure you take time to rest and recover. Sending healing vibes from Canada! XOXO Nathalie
You are soooo sweet to make all of the online comments you made.
I almost made some goofy comments when I left my first comment… but I deleted them as I knew this was a pretty serious thing we were dealing with here about vertigo, with a lot of gals pouring their hearts out. I didn’t want to make ‘light’ of the matter at hand, lest anyone should think I was shallow.
But you and I know each other, and yes, earth, wind, and fire…I quite agree is a pretty cool rock band. Isn’t there a band called ‘Vertigo’ too? I’m just glad you are feeling better.
Yeah, and who knows what they really aren’t telling us about the radiation leaks in the ocean and in the air that can travel around the world from Japan. I do take a homeopathy remedy called Hepar Suphur in the 30x dose, or the 30c dose from Boiron, which comes in cylindrical tiny plastic blue bottles you can get at Vitamin Shoppe. Since you were referring to mercury above, it is also said to take mercury out of the body. All I know is, if I take it consistently, it does help with sinus and unplugging my ears.
You can look up homeopathy online. I know You use arnica ointment and it is along the same natural lines of natural medicine.
(I may have mentioned some of this to you before). I was very intrigued by our ears having crystals in them. I know that is why people have their feet massaged to break up the crystals that accumulate there. There is a world of knowledge out there it’s just knowing where to find it.
hugs,
Miss Teresa
P.S. I have been wanting to go have a whole body alignment from a holistic lady physician who treats people with body adjustments, foot adjustments, and she has this gift of figuring out what will help a person back to healing their whole body. I think she has herb teas that she also recommends to get toxins out of the body. I feel so dumb when it comes to really knowing how to take care of my entire body, mind, and inner being.
Oh that vertigo sounds absolutely horrible and nasty!! I cannot imagine what you have been going through and I am so glad that you are feeling a little better 🙂 You deserve to feel wonderful! I am so lucky to have had very few physical ailments, just some nasty depression and acute anxiety which I have to take one day at a time. My aunt had a major surgery for cancer today so I have also been thinking about people who have to deal with such things every day and how brave they are. I hope you keep feeling better, take care of yourself 🙂 ~Lauren
Oh hon I am so sorry, I know exactly how you feel. Oddly enough I took a spill from a horse years ago and hit my head on a rock and I have it from that too. Weird huh!
However there is a wonderful drug called Antivert. It works at light speed. Plus it’s non narcotic. I suggest you ask your doctor for it, and be sure to keep it in a place where you can get to it when it hits.
Hugs, Kelly
Oh god it sounds awful! sometimes when I get a cold the virus get on my balance and I feel dizzy, but this must be even worse. Thank god youre back and I pray that you will never have it again! /Therese
I had a 2 week bout of vertigo brought on by a virus, about 10 years ago. I couldn’t do a thing! It sucked. I feel for you. Here’s wishing you a seedy recovery!
I’m glad you shared this. I’m glad you feel like you can share this. It is your reality, and the way you approach this struggle is admirable. I became very sick in my mid-thirties and was in treatment for several years. I am fine now, but as you write, illness can make you stronger and more appreciative of the everyday joys many people don’t even notice. I wish you well! I admire your fortitude in dealing with the vertigo.
My one piece of advice is when you seek treatment or see your doctor, ask ask ask questions. A good doctor takes time to answer your questions and to stay current on research relating to your medical challenges.
Take care,
Sarah
Hope you continue to feel better!
I know exactly how you feel. I have vertigo as well. Mine can be brought on by stress. There are times when I get so spinny-spinny (as I call it) that I can’t even drive a car for fear of crashing into something or someone trying to correct the spinning. Walking gets fun as well. I inherited it from my mother. (Thanks Mom!) She would get so bad that she couldn’t leave the bathroom for days at a time. I hope that you and I never get that bad. I do love those vertigo drugs though, they are like a bit of magic, aren’t they?
Dear Vanessa,
I have heard of Vertigo but never knew it to be so bad! I feel for you. A few years ago i had a medicine that made the whole world seem to be on tilt to the left..scared the shit out of me and stopped taking the medicine. Ive suffered and still suffer from a mild form of borderliner and its hard to live with it. there are days i just want to lay in bed and not see anyone or hear anyone…not even myself. The body is a strange and fragile thing…i dont know why these things happen..does it come from food or water? Or other worldly things? *sigh* Ill pray for you and i send you a huge fluffy pink with yellow dots hug…tc dear <3 Ps: I love your blog and look in whenever i have the time.
What a terrible,mean April Fool’s joke those fools of April played on you. I am so glad you showed them and that you are back to your magical self – spreading cheer a thousand times over!!!We all love you so and will send LIGHT and LOVE and MAGIC and PROTECTION your way!!
so you said we could share… I read this post, I read and I felt it. My grandma used to suffer vertigo I´ve had only one strong attack in my life. I still have the feeling that i can only begin to grasp what you feel, but i do know what suffering is. I have suffered greatly for my son, and sometimes i cry at night because we no longer feel safe. I´m sending a link to why i don´t feel safe anymore, not because it´s beautifu, but because it´s real, and it feels nice to have a space to share real things once in a while, right? Big latin hug and hope you´re feeling better…Clau
http://handmadeconamor.blogspot.com/2011/03/need-to-breathe.html
PS: I´ll be posting about you today!!!! Ciao!
The first tree bloomed up this way the other day. Oh, it fills my heart with joy. So happy to see that you are enjoying the beauties of nature as always.. 🙂 hearts… t
great! thank you
Hello Vanessa, it’s been Sooooo long!
I’m making some baby staeps back to my blog and though I’m not reading blogs still (not doing great with screens) I have vowed to at least this year visit everyone on my links.
It was quite spooky to read this post, because for the most of January and February I was suffering from Vertigo for the first time ever. 1st major moment I was luckily in bed (asleep actually) so in no position to injure myself. I guess it was lucky that my CFS was in bad relapse cause it meant I wasn’t walking around much, otherwise I’d have been in a right state.
It’s mostly cleared now, just bouts of more general dizziness which seem like a drop in the ocean by comparison.
But how awful that you have had this as a yearly occurrence. I’m glad the meds have helped and I’ll bear in mind that they exist if it happens again. At the time I was too ill to go to the Doctor anyway which is probably why it went on so long.
I’m glad too that you have talked about it here because I think people (including me before this year) don’t realise what it’s really like – I blame Hitchcock. That feeling of spinning and falling that is so extreme it wakes you from the deepest sleep is something I could never have anticipated. And not a vertiginous building in sight.
Let’s hope that was the last one you experience, but if there are more I hope that they go Olympic in their frequency rather than annual.
Wishing you a great year Vanessa.
Take care… Cally x
PS, love the new (to me) Blog banner!
Sweetiepie boo-boo! I am so sorry. I am glad there are some meds, however limited… I have not read your comments, and I plan to, and this is probably already said, but isn’t it interesting that we humans have such finite understanding sometimes? I shouldn’t say ‘such’ finite understanding, since finite is a finite quality, but in any case, I sometimes remember how I can be so unable to understand someone’s real pain, just as I can misunderstand someone’s opinions or someone’s intent. We are really very small creatures sometimes, trapped in our fear of what’s outside us.
xo
Oh, and I forgot to mention, but I will now (you thought you were the only one who could leave long comments on your own blog!) that when I had my car accident and my head was hit so hard, I was dizzy for a long time afterward. Also, my partner gets dizzy spells and so does the woman across the street. Now, I know this is not like true Vertigo, which can be a chronic condition. But I do know that I was taught something called The Hepley Maneuvre, developed by a physician 50 years ago or so, and it take these little crystals in your ear, which have become dislodged somehow (sometimes from a blow, sometimes with age, whatever), and it puts them back where they belong and stops them moving around in there. Frankly, I laffed and laffed when he told me, and then after a week of doing the maneuvre, I wasn’t dizzy for years. It also worked for Cathie and for my neighbor. If you want to try them, let me know. You can find them on line, too, but they look like the silliest thing to do since Twister.
Sending gentle hugs.
Sorry to hear that you suffer at all and especially that this time was so horrible.
Glad to hear you are feeling better.
i’m so sorry vanessa! my son has had two vertigo spells and oh, how he suffered, so i know what it must be like for you. it seems sooo awful. i live with an illness, ME. it is about extreme exaustion(without exersion) and pain. i have had it twenty years or more. i am used to it now. sending hugs to you xxxxoooo
I’m so sorry you have to go through that… 🙁
I’ve been feeling really dizzy lately when I get up (and have been worried) but your vertigo sounds so awfully intense! 🙁
Glad you are feeling better!
And I LOVE your photos! 😀
I am SO sorry that you are called to suffer in this way. I TOTALLY understand. There are no instant things that people can say that makes it better, but please know that others cry with you and for you. You may suffer, but never alone. I hope that you have a good long break from this and the dizzies don’t come back ever. You are very brave and Special, do you know that ? It truly makes you grab life by the horns when you feel good doesn’t it ? Prayers and Hugs coming your way :):):):)
Sorry to hear about your vertigo Vanessa, it sounds horrible. I`m happy that you`re feeling better now.
I myself have been feeling less than a 100% lately. The doctors think that I may have hypothyroidism, but I need more tests before they can say for sure. It would explain a lot of my health problems though, so I actually hope for hypothyroidism, lol.
Oh Vanessa! Yikes what an ordeal. Sorry you were so down and out with this. How horrible. So glad you are feeling better now. What a nice response from people. It is so good to know there are real caring souls out there. Some of your comments were HUGE and it is amazing that people take the time for you…see what you draw into your life? Pure goodness! You deserve it and more.
Much love to you, Gillian xoxoxo
Oh, you poor little chook.
I had thought you were a bit quite there for a while. I am so sorry to hear of your most recent bout of Vertigo. By the sounds of it…it must really SUCK. I’m very pleased that you are feeling like youself again. The Land of Blog is not the same without you dear one.
When illness strikes, it does have an ‘up side’, though, as you pointed out. It helps us develop empathy. Sadly, it seems that illness and suffering are quite wonderful in the grand scheme of things.(though while we are IN IT it really does suck)
I know a neat little verse, it goes like this:
“Not till the loom is silent, and the shuttles cease to fly, will God unrole the canvas and explain the reason why….the dark threads are as needful in the weavers skillful hand, as the threads of gold and silver, for the pattern He has planned.”
Two years ago, I had to endure treatment for breast cancer. Surgery/chemo/radium are so yucky. Things have improved now, and I am trying to grow my hair longish again. Bald was kinda nice, in a weird way. But having absolutely NO body hair made me feel like a lizard. While still on anti-cancer drugs for the next couple of years, I am now living the best years of my life. Through it all I have developed more empathy for people who must endure pain and suffering.
I hope you won’t have another bout of Vertigo…ever.
Keep us smiling dear Vanessa, and know that YOU ARE LOVED, in this strange and wonderful Land of Blog.
V🖤
I am so sorry you were feeling so aweful. And I am so happy you are well again. I was just stuck in bed for 5 days with a terrible flu and ear infection and it really does make you appericate how great life is when your well and makes you so greatful you feel okay most of the time. my doggy snuggled in with me too. he was the only one glad i was stuck in bed. 🙂 Take care and enjoy your beatiful garden.
I’m so glad you’re feeling better… I have no idea just how awful Vertigo is, but I have migraines & blood pressure drama & tinnitus, plus a healthy dose of depression/anxiety disorder. Praise God that they all hit me at separate times or I might not live through it. Alas, they all hit me at separate times so, it almost would seem, that I am never feeling well for one reason or another. I muscle through for my family, but there are days. Oh the days where I wish with all my heart I didn’t have to. And then there are the days after that I wallow in guilt for having felt ready to give up the day before. Thanks for sharing your ‘truths’ with us, so we don’t get all tangled & lost in our own…
shay
Amazing collection……!!! The better way to keep the memories alive…!!!
I had vertigo last night and told my cats…it’s time to lie down. They gladly joined me in bed. I went to sleep around 5pm and didn’t get up till 1AM. I heard my daughter and her dad talking off and on, but I just rolled over. I feel a bit better now, but I have to get up early to take my daughter to get her HW turned in. She’s been home schooling latey. Glad you are feeling better.
Katharine