It was a no good, super duper awful morning today. Ever had one of those? It was not a life threatening morning, which almost makes anything else trivial really. But, I would say, it was gasp worthy rotten. I drove home in tears. I arrived to hugs from Mister, as well as outrageous hugs and loves from Matty.
All whilst a tiny hummingbird looked on.
Things go down so funny in my little world sometimes.
I called my mom, and she commiserated. In only the way a mom can.
Then I called my sister. She rocked with her words, and made me feel a lot better.
Then my dad called me, and in his superhero way, patched up my spirit.
I crawled into my bed and pulled the covers over my head.
Then Lovee and Matty jumped into my bed with me, and of course, we cried for Baby. Because that is what we do, especially when we feel mashed up and rotten. We miss her. Then the three of us hugged, Matty, Mister and me.
Mom called again. Making everything extra better.
Then my sister sent me an incredible quote.
And, my dad called again, and I cried, telling him how lucky I am to have them all.
He agreed, that I was lucky.
🙂
And I realized…
Nothing matters more than love and people who care about you (who you care about too).
I knew that already.
But, don't you love how the universe shows you what matters most?
Even if it does it in the most astonishing fashion?
Gives me chills.
I went outside, and guess who was still hanging around?
I asked him if he wouldn't mind waiting while I grabbed my camera?
In I ran, and back out again…
As I started snapping photos, he turned his head around and looked at me ever so curiously.
And then, he totally hammed it up.
I felt his kindness.
No really, I did.
And I lost myself, in that moment…
With turquoise and cobalt metallic feathers, and a beak.
On this funny, odd little rotten day…
That turned out to be, a-okay, in a round about way.
Have you had yourself a rotten little day lately?
Severely rotten? Only a tinge rotten?
I'll tell you what, let's make a list, and I'll turn it into night sky fire-light sparkles, while I roast marshmallows.
You have a free sounding board, starting now 🙂
Whatta ya say?
Mine had to do with a freaky weird car incident, and a piece of art getting mashed up.
Now your turn….
ps: Thank goodness for subscriptions, the US postal service and mailboxes. A break, in the sun, with a magazine, is just what I need.
Here’s a hug Miss V! And any sex-ay picture of Johnny Depp puts me back on planet happy!
Hmmm…I hate to dwell on rotten days. I have them and they usually leave me on my couch in my pajamas, wondering where they went and why I didn’t do more to change my life. It’s tough, sometimes. Yesterday was sort of one of those. I had eaten some cheese sticks for dinner the previous night, and I had the most horrid pains, and wanted to get up and run off to the hospital and cry and just be well, or at least sleep. I finally did sleep but when I woke yesterday, the pain was still there. I spent most of the day just moping and worrying, which does no good at all. Since I have had a doctor tell me I had gallstones, I’m pretty sure it was related. I don’t trust doctors sometimes, so I still don’t know what to do for the situation. I made dinner and fell asleep on the love seat and slept late today. But I’m doing better, so I’m pretty sure my prayers were answered for recovery. Who has time for this stuff now. I hope you’re feeling much better today! Hugs!
Oh, and I meant to say, your pictures cheer me up and make me smile… such a lovely little visitor you have!
I’m so sorry you had such a horrid day. But glad you had somebody to help you put it back together. Thats what really counts. No, horrid day stories i can think of to regale you with. Since i quit work a few weeks ago things have definately been looking up! Hugs! deb
I am sorry to hear you had a bad time-but glad you had the love and hugs you deserved. My bad days have been quite a few recently-and all work related. But they are all to do with things I can’t control so I try not to dwell on them. And home, Andy and little cats always make things better.
I love the hummingbird! So beautiful.
x
Hi Vanessa,
So sorry you had a Rotten day today too!Today was a day that I just well…Sobbed.My boy is leaving on sunday for boot camp and I am just having the HARDEST time with that. Most times I can’t even SPEAK..
I LOVED hearing that your parents cheered you…Wish Mine were here to help me out today.I visit your blog every day and you always ‘cheer” Me.
Lets look to tomorrow.
Fondly
Trish
Vanessa…
With a car accident involved in your bad day, I’m thankful that you weren’t hurt. I am surely sorry about the art. I noticed that your new painting is no longer in your Etsy shop…I hope something dreadful didn’t happen to the Gypsy Girl!!
I’ve had a run of bad days for several years! But mine all has to do with horribly rotten and icky stuff like hospice, my mom’s death, guilt over not being able to take care of my mom all by myself so I had to put her in a board and care…on and on…
So, my recent run of bad days has me frustrated but very aware that things could surely be worse. All in one week, we had a whole bunch of “stuff” break. Our car (and we had to buy a new one), our dishwasher, our clothes dryer and BOTH of my birdbaths. But….I had a FABULOUS and magical day yesterday…and I’m still smiling. Ups and downs, contrasts….black and white, Heaven and hell. contrasts!
Kim 🖤
Gerushia’s New World
P.S. I Love you, Johnny Depp!!
My horrible days usually come from my day job at the law firm where I work. Too much variety in incidents there to mention, but let’s just say I play Lotto. Every week now.
Amazing bird!
Can we hear the quote?
Well.
My night is a bit blah. I’ve just rested enough after my big opening and a craft fair to remember what made me sad 🙁
Someone very near and dear who I’m afraid isn’t telling the truth and I’m really scared I can’t trust her. I want to but I want to know it’s for real.
Vanessa, So glad that you are ok! ((Hugs))
Your wonderful photos always make my day brighter. You are an amazing talent. What a beautful little hummingbird friend.
…Johnny!…sigh…always puts a smile on my face!!
~Teresa
Oh my word, this post couldn’t have come at a better time!
I’ve had two, T.W.O., two very rotten days in a row.
I see that it is time to find my turquoise feathers and make it all better.
Thank you!
I’ve had some rotten no good days that is involve my family… I’m so happy to hear that you have such a supportive family… Mine is not and if I think to much about it ~it makes me very sad…
I love your hummingbird photos… I truly believe they are magical!
Take care and get those hugs : )
Pattee
I’m so sorry. Hope you are okay and I’m super sorry about your art.
I’ve had a ho-hum day too. We’ve had my step-daughter’s children for 4 1/2 years and they are going back to her tomorrow…16 hours away…
Feels like I’m handing my own children over. I’m a blubbering idiot right now and I need a hummingbird.
hugshugshugshugs…
oh, yeh…and a pic of Johnny doesn’t hurt either.
How amazing that the little hummer stayed put all that time…and what great shots of him you managed to get. It turned out great after all…
I’m envious that you have family…. I don’t even have in-laws…they hate me.. .. always have… and I finally gave up trying and now just don’t include them in my life, at all. Toxins begone! Sad for my Mister Lovee as he wishes of course, that everybody could be friends..but… they can’t.
I’m glad you are physically ok after the accident. You are so lucky to be surrounded by so much love! (your family plus all of us love you too!)I wonder sometimes if bad days happen partly to remind us how loved and supported we are, and to remind us to be grateful.
I’ve had some doosies of bad days that are almost comical in the way each event was worse than the one before, but nothing recent. That’s the good thing about bad days, their power dissipates quickly, especially in the face of love. Add a hammy hummingbird and you’re golden!
Thanks for brightening my so-so day!
You more than anyone do not deserve bad days! You bring too much happiness to too many people so there should never ever be horribly bad days for you! it should be a law! but i know that can’t be. and that everyone has to have a bad day every once in a while. i’m just very glad that you are okay.
unfortunately for over a year i’ve had mostly bad days with only a very few good days. 🙁
i’m sure that vanity fair cover will perk you right up though! i know it would me…
🙂
blessings
~*~
Sending hugs my sweet friend…so grateful you weren’t seriously hurt. How blessed you are to have loved ones to hold you near with words and hugs.
I love quotes and collect them in my little journal, so I am sharing a birdie one with you…
“No bird soars too high if he soars with his own wings” – William Blake
Oh Trish, my boy leaves for boot camp on March 7th. I dread it with all my heart.
Miss V,
I had a day that started out OK but my boss said something rude and it just sent me spinning into a FUNK. I LOVE what I do but I can’t handle where I do it or the company I do it for. They have a way of making you feel totally worthless and stupid. I hope every day for a new job where I can do what I do but be appreciated for it. Does any such thing exist?
Thank you so much for your post and the photos of that beautiful humming bird. You made my day a bit brighter.
We have to cheer up… we have birthday weeks coming up!! 🙂
Vicki
Vanessa, I am so very sorry for the awful day. Is your car very damaged? Is there any way to salvage the artwork? I know that must have made you sick when that happened. What a blessing, though, that those who love you were there to encourage you! I have a hubby and parents like that, too, and it is such a magnificent blessing. So glad you saw the hummingbird to help cheer you on. He was such a wonderful little example of all that is beautiful in the world and a reminder that better times are ahead! {{{Big hug}}} for you today!!!
You know, I’m siding with whoever already said thank goodness you’re okay. Cars can be fixed. People, wonderful change the world people like you? Not so much. I think my worst day was about 2 years ago when my husband lost his job. The next day I came home from work and found him sitting alone in the dark. He said to me, “The best day of my life was when I married you.” Well, that day, the day he was sitting alone and sad in the dark, it became the BEST day of my life. We made it through that. We are still making it through. You will too. And that little hummingbird? If that teeny, tiny hummingbird can make it through his teeny, tiny life and make YOU smile? Then, baby, we can all make a difference. And, my dearest dear, YOU do! Keep smiling. – Cheers, Kathy
Oh yes, I did! Mine had to do with a very disturbed man on the subway on my commute to work this morning. I normally am not bothered by the sights of the city but this guy decided that I was his target and he could spew all the hateful nasty stuff he wanted at me. The train was packed and there was nowhere to move or go so I ended up getting off before my stop and walking to work shaking like a leaf. My whole day was tainted by his threats. 🙁
Sorry about the horrid day. Sucks about the art work and car incident. Life is quite strange… strange and beautiful in it’s own little ways. Glad you had a whole army to help you up and about. Yes, anyone with that much love… is beyond just lucky. they’re blessed. 😀
Hope J.Depp put you in a better mood still. 😀
I love him. yummy~
oh my goodness, it was a woo-woo day wasn’t it? the kinda day where you are THIS close to woe is I…..
I’m sorry about the art casualty. 🙁 And the car fiasco. And yes, still the sorrow of missing Beloved Baby is fresh and raw.
BUT.so grateful (as is everyone else) that Matty is Lovee adore you madly, fiercely and passionately. That your family’s got your back, and THEN….
the Infinitely Wise Hummingbird Of The Universe came along and hung out with ya! It is always a good omen when a hummingbird dressed like a peacock comes to visit. 🙂
EXTREME and UBER Coolness.
sound off?
UCKY POO to negative energy !
and
HIP HIP HOORRAH for the positive!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxviiixoxoxox
BIG ginormous hugs to you, Vanessa. I am soooo sorry to hear about your accident. I can imagine how frightened you were. But the most important thing is that you are safe and well loved in the arms of Mr.Lovey and Matty. I have had plenty of rotten days – days when I just want to go to bed and start all over again. How amazing it is that that gorgeous hummingbird stayed and waited for you. The faeries were watching over you. 🙂 You may indeed place a ceremonial paper for me and use it to create your fire for the marshmallows. xoxo Theresa
PS I hope your day got a little brighter…I see Johnny Depp’s face there on Vanity Fair – that always helps ME feel a little brighter. 🙂
Oh no Vanessa, so sorry your morning was rotten…but to know that you are loved sooo, isn’t that wonderful!? Your humming bird friend is amazingly beautiful. Hugs to you dear friend, hope tomorrow is a much better day!
Jamie 🙂
So sorry you had a bad day. But at least you are all right and had a lovely hummingbird come by to help you. I hope you can save the art.
I haven’t really had any bad days until today when I found out I will have to use my Christmas money to fix my possessed car. But at least I caught the problem before it got worse and became unfixable.
Hugs and warm wishes to you and have a better week.
Magical…that’s what I call that tiny beauty of a hummingbird…very, very magical. He was there just for you!
And of course…Johnny Depp is very magical too…unlimited acting abilities to say the least.
I am sorry you had a car mishap. Sometimes I hate cars. Two different people ran stop lights very close to a car I was in and my son had a guy run a stop light and my son had to accelerate in order to keep getting hit. My son has ALWAYS TOLD ME to be AWARE of my surroundings. It has paid off. Kind of the stop, drop, roll kind of thing when something does go wrong. Not that I’ll ever be where gun shots are, but even to be aware of abnormal sounds and to drop…Life does get crazy.
I hope the artwork…oh well, I can hardly say it…but…it doesn’t sound like it was a happy incident with the car and the artwork getting scrunched.
I hope you feel better soon. I am happy you have family and Mr. Lovee and Matty to make you feel better.
hugs,
Miss Teresa
Me again.
P.S.
typo…that was ‘to keep FROM getting hit’
oh, well. I know you knew what I meant.
Usually I need to go and kick something, or throw something, when something goes wrong, and I get all mad and go around saying “Grrrr!” I’m sure Matty can give you some pointers! I think dogs have the right idea when they use their stuffed animals and shake them to pieces…it helps to let off steam! And of course climbing under your covers was a very good idea too…I do love my own little corner to get away from it all.
Aww Vanessa, so sorry you had a tough day, but the hummingbird would have surely cheered me up too.
I tried to make up a new oven-fried fish fillet recipe the other day and it turned out tasting like fish-flavored cake. I gave up cooking the rest of the week. That only made my day a tinge rotten but it always makes me want to give up trying new things.
Can I just say your words and your photos take me away from my odd little day (in a very good way).
Bless you and your sweet family.
We have to move,(-) moving date tomorrow. We’re leaving a beautiful home in the middle of a nice little Pine forest (-). We’re moving to be closer to family (+), daughters (+) granddaughters (+), and other family (+). We have to be closer to family because my husband is dying (-) he is in home hospice care now and we are blessed with every day we have together (+). Bittersweet. Looking for the silver lining every day. Bless you and your loved ones.
I find that LOVE conquers all. Only dwell in the days of wonderful happings. Of course those bad days creep in but they do change and seem to dissappear for a while. I love your little friend Mr.Hummer and his photos are woundrous. Only good thoughts now.
hi…
i read your blog and today it was just ever so appropriate for how i was feeling….notice i said “was”, because what you wrote just brightened my day….
thank you so much!!
millie
Something similar happened to me once upon a time. I was having a horrid day, a hurtful one and while working on a project outside was saying a prayer. I was talking to God about my troubles and I had been longing for a dog to be my companion.(I have a family but wanted a pet too) While I was working and praying a dove sat on some nearby telephone wires. He (or she) watched me the entire time. I decided to ride down to the animal shelter and see what I could see, all the time saying if there is a match for me….let me know. 🙂
I walked in the shelter, looked at all those sweet, mostly barking, faces and came to the last dog. Do you know what her name was? DOVEY. 🙂 I fell in love.
She has been with us now for going on 10 years.
I love hummingbirds. I have some planters right outside on the patio and even in winter the birds will come and perch on a little trellisand the plants look for seeds. We also keep bird seed in 2 feeders and I can see both from where I sit. So I spend much time watching the birds, grabbing my camera and taking their pictures. I can’t believe Mr. Hum stayed so long. Great pictures.
I’m so sorry you had an accident. But cars can be repaired or replaced. Glad you weren’t hurt. But the “what ifs” can drive you crazy. Glad you had your wonderful boys to cry with, hug with and to help you get through the day.
I do have rotten days, usually involving my work, just cause of what I do, the responsibility and what is going on with “my kids”. Some days are just so busy and stressful. But a few days off and I’m always ready to go back and deal with it all again.
I have had personal rotten days, too, you can’t be 57 and not know rotten. But there is usually something wonderful that comes along after the rotten and I think it sorta cancel out the rotteness. And southern girl that I am I do have the Scarlett Ohara philosphy that tomorrow is another day.
We were talking about similar things in a webgroup and I told them, yesterday is gone I can’t change it but I can possibly influence my tomorrows.
My most recent rotten day was Sunday. My best friend’s (for over 35 years now) dad died. The last time we talked I asked about him and she told me she could see him going down every time she sees him. Its the same with my own mom. So of course my heart hurts for her losing her only parent, it brings back my own dad’s death, and it makes me think even more about how my mom is doing. Her dad was such a sweet man. Her family is like mine and my parents always told everyone she is their 4th daughter.
But there are things to be thankful for, he lived to his 70s and was a wonderful father to his chosen family. I was there for her at the wake, the funeral and the burial. Its all we can do as friends for each other, just be there with a smile, a hug and an I love you.
I’m sorry that was so long.
Did I even mention how much I love the pictures.
I am sorry you had this horrible rotten day 🙁
but
the visitation of this jeweled friend, well, you said it…you are a lucky girl.
oh I have tiny rotten moments, I don’t want to bore everyone with them here…but I really do realize how lucky I am.
take good care,
x..x
How lucky you are to be visited by such enchanting little birds. Lindax
🖤 Oh…Poor Miss Vanessa!! I’m so sorry you had a rotten start to the day (I hope it was nothing too too horrible!!) And that all is better now! It’s lovely that you found such magic and light from all your loved ones and that sweet little birdling! 🙂 I think he must have been sent just for you! Yes, indeedy!! 🖤
Goodness….I can’t stop crying…..Gilli, I will pray for you.
Every December I hold my breath – 8 years ago on December 10th my husband was in ICU & pulled through and again two years ago on December 10th we were in the E.R. and the hospital called in a Chaplain to pray with us – he had a transplant and is still here. But life is so short and every time I want to get caught up in things that don’t matter, I think back to the family who lost their loved one so my husband has another chance to live.
Its the everydayness though Vanessa that can get you down. You obviously have a very tender heart and care deeply…..don’t loose that. Nature is so uplifting and in the moment – reminding us this too shall pass.
another tiny thought – maybe your car incident brought back memories of how close you came to losing Mr. Lovee…….
How utterly delightful that God should send such an exquisite little hummingbird to make you pause in your misery and rottenness, and quite forget for a moment. So you could receive the touch of perfection and beauty that He had sent, to cheer you up a little. I do know all about days where everything turns crappy. I even had my own ‘freaky weird car incident’ day a few weeks ago. And I can relate to your sad, tearful “missing your beloved ‘Baby’ moments”. As I still miss my dear little siamese ‘Jenna’.
So it was really nice to learn that you were able to pause and acknowledge the small token of love that was sent to you.
And, thankyou, for thinking to grab your camera so you could share this with us.
Hope things begin to be Merrier and Brighter for you, as we approach Christmas and the New Year.
Boy do I sympathize – but not one bad morning, but like two weeks of them. Ugh! I’m sick of being sick! I finally managed to rally a bit and brush off my humbug feelings and get a little bit into the Christmas spirit. I posted on my blog my little white silhouette tree today and I feel better now. Back to work and off I go to haul out my Christmas treasures and feather my nest for winter…
And you are sooo lucky with that beautiful hummingbird!! How wonderful – and the color! Stunning. 😉 Thanks for adding a bit of color to my day, too.
So, so sorry for the bad day. There seems to be a few of them going around lately. What a true blessing to be comforted by loved ones – both the human and furry ones. While any car accident/turmoil is awful, anyone in which someone can walk away is ultimately an inconvenience and not a tragedy.
I love the photos of hummingbird. My husband and I just hung a bird feeder outside our living room window. Living on the coast of Maine, we are not being visited by hummingbird on these freezing December days! I do love watching the cardinals, woodpeckers, finches and chickadees.
Take care.
Sarah
This is my first time to your site. I found you through art-memoirs.blogspot.com.
Your talent makes my heart leap out of my chest. Your writing, your art. Amazing.
I’m following your blog now and will be back often.
Thanks for sharing YOU with the world!
xo
I’m so sorry that you had a rotten day…and you know? I’m noticing more and more, even when it’s rotten, there are all sorts of things that are trying to get our attention and let us know we’re still loved and still receiving help. But, it’s still OK to cry and feel rotten…there’s love and goodness in that too <3
I’m in love with that bird. Madly.
And as for you, you are right…nothing matters more than those who really love us.
xoxox
My daughter and I have been at odds at each other. She wants me to stay the fun loving mom but I’m trying to get her to be more responsible. We’ve had problems with her getting sick and not going to school and having problems with depression too. We’ve seen therapists and psychiatrists and she started meds that will help her ADD as well. She thinks I’m giving her a hard time. I tell her I’m just soooo tired. I’ve been the mom that she could hide with when the world was scary but now I have to nudge her into the world again. She’s happy with her freinds and making videos and being crazy creative, but when it’s time to wind down it’s grouch grouch to mom.
We all have those days and then we hope the next day will be better.
Katharine
P.S. We had a hummingbird in our house and I got to carry it out. I was so amazed on how beautiful it was. Fushia head with green wings. I’ve never seen a blue one like yours. At first I thought yours was fake till I saw him turn his head. I mean it is so perfect. Thanks for sharing the photos.
oh my
hope your world
has ~*righted*~ itself!
:-0
me?
my upsetting things
seem
mostly silly & wee
plus
just looking at johnny D
making
a pirate muscle
makes my World whirl
so to speak!
{{ i love how he always wears scarves
around his neck, euro*style,
don’t you?
it SOoooo makes me
want
to unwrap him….
ah ha! }}
Awe, my poor poor little Gypsy Princess. I had a horrid rotten day yesterday due to my own choice of viewing the day. So this morning I did what I used to have the children do when they were just wee ones . . . I chanted Let’s turn this day around . . . as I spun about the room in circles. I think the spinning sets the brain waves right! What a fantastic shot of the hummingbird in his close up. He is glorious. **happy smiles** Deb
I hope today has been better! I had a fabulous day…but I know about the rotten ones, too! Love your sweet little birdie! Hugs coming your way…for a sweet and happy day! 🖤🖤🖤
The humming bird is a gift for sure….but it is always good to keep perspective on what rotten can mean and count those lucky stars. My god daughter overdosed on her medication and byaer asprin last night. No one knows yet if she was trying to kill herself….she is still in an endoused coma to control the seisures. I looked at my own children last night and just was reminded to always be thankful and to breath through those things that dont really matter. Its hard but it is times like these that challenge our perspective and strengthens our hearts for the ones who give us strength. I on the other hand dont really know what to say that would mean anything to my bestfriend who is suffering as this 16 yrsold mother. There are no logical reasons for this behavior….except for genes and depression that runs throughtout her family. How un fair is that. I want to teach her about art journaling…..she is great with words and art so Im thinking that would be a great for her. Listen to me go on. Thanks for giving me this platform to let it out…I think Im sadner than I can really deal with.
my treasures, lately have been covered in ghost cloths that I put there. they are were there all the while I wept and slept. I decided to climb out and look, too, friend. I posted what I found. The treasures are uncovered dear one. You see the jewels and the gifts before you and sigh thank goodness I can spread a bit of joy another day. I am soo glad you are o.k. and send love to you and your feathered friend who gave you joy. Blessings.
Hi V:) Not trying to one up anyone… my month has pretty well led me to tears daily. Mom crossed over in April and Dad is gone too, along with a brother…feeling like an orphan this Christmas. No Christmas house/family home to go to. Thinking I have to mov and leave mate of 7 years, unreal what is going on there. Aww what else…did decorate but now feel like Christmas is over to me this year & time to put all the stuff away, but I won’t. It’s in the heart anyway.. cover my head cry in bed and pray. Even my pets seem down. Having a close friends has been the best for me…God and Jesus bring hope Happy Happy!
P.S. V, Forgot to mention have been getting hearts for 7 months now.. I pour ketchup it falls into a heart shape, heart shape chips, in snow, & tissues of tears..someone is getting me and makes me smile and very thankful..:)
Well you certainly know how to cheer a girl up with enchantingly beautiful hummingbirds and Mr. Depp. Oh my…pitter pat. Hoping you are having better days now.
Hugs
Diana
Smooches. I’m sorry.
I won’t share a rotten day, because there have been several lately. Thank you for asking, tho. If you feel like finding out about one (which turned out with gratitude, just like yours) you can go by my blog.
I hope you are well. I’ve been gone too long again.
bye.