Our beloved furry girl has left us…
At home, on the little lawn, under a beautiful blue sky ~ with Mommy and Daddy curled around her, holding her, whispering to her how much we love her ~ she closed her eyes and found peace…
It is so incredibly difficult for me to type these words…
Baby stayed until our Mad Tea Party, where we took pictures and had fun. She wanted to be here, with us, every moment, but her body couldn't fight any longer. The details are just too heartbreaking to share.
There are no words to describe our love for her. The beauty of her soul, and how she led us by her paw, to a place deep inside of ourselves…
Baby opened our hearts to a depth of love and to a connection, that only a furry loved one can take you to – if you are willing to let yourself fall…
To fall into deep love, to fall into selfless caring, to fall into silent understanding.
I never knew of that place, until Baby took me there.
She opened my eyes to furry creatures, to loving them and seeing them, in a way that I couldn't see until she showed me.
We met Baby at a yard sale almost 10 years ago, and I remember the day perfectly.
"I love your dog" I said to the woman having the sale.
"She isn't my dog, we just feed her," said the woman.
Then the woman said, you can have her if you want.
I asked what her name was.
"Baby," responded the woman…
So, I worked on Mister Lovee for 2 weeks (he says it was less), until he said yes. We were not pet people then, we didn't know what we were doing. We brought Baby home (she was about 1 year old), and she was wild, destroying so many things and digging up so much industrial irrigation, that we had to take her back. We were sad, but at the time, we felt we had no other choice. (something that we would never do today, as evolved furry creature lovers)
2 months later, after Mister Lovee and I had gone out to dinner and to a movie, we returned home to find Baby sitting in front of our gate. She had found us.
She stayed.
And, she never destroyed a thing again.
Mister Lovee says that Baby chose us to be her family, and she chose this place to be her home.
She protected me, she guarded our home, she was kind, she was gentle.
She was an angel.
I will miss everything about her.
It was a terribly difficult weekend for us, Matty whimpered and sighed heavily, abandoning his rambunctious self for several days. All we could get ourselves to do really was cry and sleep, and talk about how much we love Baby…
She was a integral part of our little family, and as far as we are concerned, will always be…
All of our tears and pain, are only because we loved her so much. And every tear we shed, is worth having known her…
Mister Lovee, Baby and me - what a beautiful life we enjoyed together…
Of course, the journey of our little lives without Baby continues, and we have precious Matty to love. All three of our lives will forever be touched and enhanced by the gift of love we were given, through knowing Baby.
Baby had a beautiful funeral, and is buried to the right of the sanctuary, under a billowing mesquite tree, not far from the great big apricot tree.
The evening she passed away, the sky gifted such beauty…
An incredible sight really…
In her last 6 months, she taught her little brother Matty, so many lessons. She would stop him with her paw, from leaving the yard. She would block him from nipping our friends. She taught him the ins and outs of this property, and how to catch lizards.
There are such amazing endless tales.
We are all healing our hearts, and have started the healing by creating a beautiful garden around her grave. Mister put in irrigation and we planted several plants.
And Matty, is guarding sister's resting place…
Every evening as the sun sets, the light that shines through the tree above her grave, fills me with so much emotion…
Baby…
We will always love you.
And, somewhere in time, I know, we'll meet again…
But for now, we hold you in our hearts, with glowing ardent love.
And, we pray, that you are at a perpetual pup party in the heavens…
My deepest sympathies. Nothing is harder than the passing of a loved one there are no words to make it any better. Just know she is in a better place and she was loved while she was here.
Vanessa, I’m crying with you for Baby… I know there are no words that could comfort you and I really don’t know what to say, I’m just glad Baby had you and you had Baby in your life, and her life was beautiful and she was loved so so much by you and Mister Lovee.
Hugs from far away!
Oh Vanessa, I feel every single ounce of your pain. I know what it feels like to lose your best friend, furry or otherwise. I’d like to think that Baby is frolicking somewhere in another dimension having the time of her life — and probably feeling badly about your being so sad. Thinking of you……
Dear Vanessa, I just came across your blog and have to say how very very sorry I am for your loss. I know how much our pets are part of our families and I feel your pain. How special that Baby clearly chose you and what a wonderful loving life she had with you. Sending big hugs, Catherine x
Seems like the longer you have had to spend time to love them the harder it is to say goodbye..that’s the weird/wonderful/maddening/heartbreaking flip side to loving someone of the human or animal kind.
Sending you and your family my condolences~
may you find much through your loss.
brightest blessings.
V~
I am so sorry for your loss Vanessa!!
🙁
They bring us such joy! We just lost a furry friend on Friday. His sister is missing him terribly and so are we.
I’m so sorry to hear of your loss.
Denise
Dear Vanessa, This makes me so sad. Your tribute to Baby is so heartfelt. It is making me cry all the more. I’m so glad you had her for 10 years so that you could share your magical existence with her and thus make it hers as well. I love the story of how you got her and how she came back to you! She must have known what a lovely existence awaited . . . . She lived a full, magnificent life, and I thank you for sharing her with us. Sending you, Mr. Lovee, and Matty gentle hugs. I am praying for your comfort.
I’m so sorry to hear of your loss, Vanessa. My thoughts are with you and yours.
Big Hugs To You All!
Dawna
I am so sorry:( Just two weeks ago we lost our dog JayCee after 10 years too. I did a nice little blog post to her too. She was one of our kids and it was the hardest thing I have gone through in a really long time. No one understands and loves you like your doggies do. I hope your Baby and my JayCee girl have met in doggie heaven:) So sorry and God Bless:) ~Shelley O.
what a loving and gorgeous tribute to your baby… i know exactly how you feel, we lost our dog last year. you gave her a wonderful life, i am glad she found you to show you all about that special love and bond. thank you for sharing this personal moment, it touches my heart to know others love and care so much. the pain will soften, then you will only smile at all the good times shared, wishing the best to you and your family, she will always been in your heart~
Dear Vanessa, I knew this post would come someday, but I didn’t realize it would be so soon. I am crying over the loss of your dear Baby, and reading your tribute to her makes me cry all the more. What a wonderful life you gave her. I have no doubt that she lived the most magical life full of such love. I am so glad you were able to share such happiness with her for 10 years. What a sweet story of how you got her and how she insisted that she was to be yours! Oh how right she was! That was meant to be. : ) Thank you for sharing Baby’s life with us. Sending hugs to you, Mr. Lovee, and Matty.
Vanessa and Mr Lovee, I am so sorry to hear of your loss of Baby. I have loved Baby from a distance via your blog posts about her, and I will miss her. Your love for her (and her love for you) has been something very special to share. Sending love and light, Vanessa. Em xxxx
Darling, she was so lucky to have you!
Don’t worry about the party – you WERE there, you are there, you give us all this wonderful energy which is partly yours.
Dear Vanessa and Mr. Lovee:
I am so very, very sorry for your loss. She must have known how truly beloved she was by you. We will miss her too! She was a part of your blog as well as your life, and we so enjoyed knowing her. May she rest in peace.
Dear Vanessa & Mr Lovee- my heart goes out to you both at this very sad time.
Darling girl,The tears flow again as they did when I first heard this….what an amazing tribute to a very loved member of your family. I know this pain and those who are not pet people can’t imagine it. Just know you and Mr.Lovee and Matty are in all our hearts and thoughts. I know Baby’s spirit will always be there in silent protection and never ending love. You gave her a wonderful life!
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
Vanessa, I am so sorry for your loss. My condolences to you, Mr. Lovee and Matty. You provided a wonderful life for Baby and she will forever be in your hearts. Deana
Oh my goodness, I am so sorry for your loss. It’s never easy to lose family, epsecially our cuddlest members. My heart goes out to you, Mr. Lovee and Matty. May your sweet Baby rest in peace.
” Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am in a thousand winds that blow,
I am the softly falling snow.
I am the gentle showers of rain,
I am the fields of ripening grain.
I am in the morning hush,
I am in the graceful rush
Of beautiful birds in circling flight,
I am the starshine of the night.
I am in the flowers that bloom,
I am in a quiet room.
I am in the birds that sing,
I am in each lovely thing.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there. I do not die.”
~ by Mary Elizabeth Frye
No one ever truly dies if we keep them alive in our hearts. My thoughts are with you.
My heart goes out to you and yours. We had a “Baby” once and the pain with losing her was/is intense. You write so beautifully about your love for her. What a lucky little Baby.
Today is our Cede’s (sadie) 9th birthday. I think I’ll go hug her. We got her when our oldest children were 15 months & not quite born, and our 4 year old knows no other life than one with Cede’ in it. I dread the inevitable loss of her & pray that it will be many more years away. My heart hurts for you & your sweet family. Hugs & prayers from Florida.
Shay
Sweet Vanessa Mr. Lovee and Matty. I am so very sorry to hear about Baby. I have felt that pain many times. Each different than the last. We will never forget. Baby will always be with you.
I learned many years ago that the pain of a loss doesn’t get any better. It changes.
My thoughts are with you.
I dedicate the Mad Tea Party in her honor.
I am so sorry to hear about baby 🙁 She was a very sweet dog and every picture I ever saw of her made me smile. I am sure that everyone understands why you couldn’t visit. Rest in peace baby dog, the blog world loves you!!
*sigh*
Dearest Miss. Vanessa, Mr. Lovee and Matty:
I am so deeply sorry for your loss. Truly and deeply.
My words can’t change anything, but I offer them to you as a comfort…knowing how much your arty blog friends honestly care about you and love you.
I wish upon all the stars that I could offer something to help, but just know that there are so many folks that are praying for you right now.
I know this doesn’t make the loss any easier, but at least Baby is no longer living in a broken world with pain and sorrow. She’s free.
Love each other:
Kim
Gerushia’s New World
I am so very sorry for your loss Vanessa. Baby was a lovely girl and what a wonderful story about how you got her and how she came back to her home. I am sure that you will find each other again. I send my love to all of you. ~Lauren
It is not that long since I lost my Furbaby I am so sorry to read that you have lost your Beautiful and loved pet too. Love and Hugs to you and Mr at this sad time 🙁
All the love to your home from ours Vanessa.We’ve been through this and we understand.
Robert and Patricia.
i can barely see to write this through the tears. i am so sorry about Baby. You are in my prayers.
Oh dear. I had suspected it might be something of that magnitude. Silent tears are rolling down my face. That was the most lovely post. The fact that you have so many sweet pictures of Baby is precious. We all loved her through your eyes. Know that my heart is deeply saddened by your loss. You will never forget her and that will allow her presence to live on in your lives. You are to be commended…for giving Baby the best life that any pup could have had. That makes you angels on this earth.
Know that I am thinking of you and keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
Peace.
Enjoy the day.
Erin xoxooooooooooooooo
I am soooooo sorry. I know what you are going through. We lost our beloved Charley in January…. I still hear him in the house on occasion…. It’s heartbreaking. He’ll always be with you.
So blessed you were to have been gifted with a Once In A Lifetime Dog…the special ones who are really angels sent to teach us love. I remember those two shots from a previous post of Baby gazing across your land and sitting at the shrine and they rip my heart out even more now…she knew. She was preparing you. Sending you all my love, Deb
Blessing and hugs to all of you …..
With lots of love …..
Vanessa your heartache…and love for Baby…reaches out to all of us lucky enough to be touched by your magic. I know this pain all too well and it never goes away but finds a treasured little pocket in your heart as a comforting reminder of how much you loved her…and she you. Your post is beautiful and heartwrenching. I hope it’s a first step towards healing and finding peace. Hugs to you and your boys.
we will all miss Baby.
All my love to you and Mister Lovee and Matty and of course, Baby.
Love and heartfelt blessings to the three of you. So sorry for your loss. Take care of yourselves and treasure those wonderful memories. Thanks to your wonderful writing and photography we got to share and treasure them too. Baby was clearly loved by all those lucky enough to meet her and the rest of us who followed her adventures as we do yours.
With love xxx
I’m so sorry about Baby! What a lovely tribute to her tender spirit, so sweet of Matty to guard her resting place.
I just cried through the whole post, hard to read it through my soggy eyes. But I also feel my heart gladden and fill with joy knowing how much love she brought into your lives, and you brought to hers. Families like that are worth every precious tear.
Such a lovely tribute indeed. Peaceful wishes to you, Miss V.
“Until one has loved an animal, a part of one’s soul remains unawakened. ”
(Anatole France)
“Dogs are not our whole life, but they make our lives whole.”
(Roger Caras)
nothing but love for all of you, & Baby too, who will always be there, in your heart, and at the sanctuary, loving you from beyond.
🖤XO🖤XO🖤XO🖤XO🖤
My heart aches along with you right now, and I only had the joy of knowing Baby in your pages in this space…I know when I lost my Sweetie Boy I used to see him running around visiting me all the time, until I told his little furry ghost-kitty body that I was OK and to enjoy himself for a little while, and he could always come back to the space that I hold for him in my heart…and he does. We see each other in dreams and out of the corner of my eyes. I am so happy that you were able to know the depth of fur-baby love and that Baby chose you as her family…she will be very missed, by everyone’s hearts she’s touched in her beautiful life. <3
I just found your blog a couple days ago and love it.
So very sorry to hear about your beloved dog passing. And yes, our sweet God loves our pets too….so Baby I believe Baby is in Heaven having a WONDERFUL time with all the other heavenly pets!!
Cry and mourn, that’s natural, but know she’s happy and waiting to see you.
Oh dearest V – So, so sorry about precious Baby! You and Mr. L. gave her a beautiful life. Sending hugs and much love to you both. xoxox
I’m so sorry for the loss of Baby. Your hearts are heavy, and that is okay. It is a sad thing, to wait to be reunited someday to our loved ones. Prayers for your hearts to not hurt so deeply, as time goes on. -Amy
Vanessa, I’m so sorry to hear about Baby. I don’t have any pets, but I feel like I do through your beautiful posts about Baby & Matty…You are in my thoughts. God Bless. xo
Dear Vanessa, I know so many others have already said the same thing, but I feel like I have to post anyway. My heart goes out to you, Mr. Lovee and Matty. I know the joy and sadness of loving and being loved by furry children. Though this time is so hard, it is worth the pain. You have wonderful memories and a zillion pictures. She isn’t really gone. She will always be with you. It will get easier and then there will be moments when it all comes back and the tears start allover again out of the blue. I try and enjoy those moments remembering my furry friends. Ok, I should stop, I’m crying for you and I’m not very eloquent. Hugs
Dawn
Dear Vanessa,
I have cried for you and your family and your loss. I am so so sorry and feel for you. Baby is so beautiful and it is so lovely the story of how you got her and she found and chose you too.
Thinking of you.
Take care.
Sarah xx
Vanessa
how well I understand.
“look in the eyes of any dog and you will see me”
that’s what my Rosie told mr just hours before she had to leave
I am so sorry. I am sure she will wait for you. I heard that on NPR: people who ‘died’ and were revived said at the end of the tunnel of light their animals were wAiting
I am asking my Rosie to show your baby around
you know how to love deeply, Vanessa, all three of you. Let the love remind you of how blessed and lucky baby and her forever family will always be
love always
kj
I am so sorry, Vanessa. I hope you know how sad we are at your loss. Take your time visiting the blogs…we understand. Hugs to you, dear friend! 🖤
Dearest Miss Vanessa, Mister Lovee, and Matty,
I realize that no words can express the loss that you are feeling right now. Baby’s beautiful personality always shined through in all of the lovely photographs you posted of her. She will be deeply missed by all.
May you find comfort in the sweet memories that you cherish of her as I am sure there are many.
Hugs and prayers to wipe your tears.
Miss Teresa
Dearest Vanessa
dont you ever feel guilty, we live in two worlds here, the virtual world and our real world and the real worlds are always going to come first. thank you so much for putting on your party, it was a huge effort we so all appreciate from you. and so much love and warmth to you, Lovee and Matty.
You have so many wonderful messages here, and thats because you still give us something so beautiful to come to, even in grief.
Dont worry about visiting parties, they can wait, and just like the white rabbit, it would be far more traditional for you to be late
So sorry for your sad loss, we will be thinking of you all, and I will halt all doggie growlings today in memory of Baby
xxx
Sheree and India and our Pipi
So so sorry to hear about your beautiful Baby. The hardest part of having pets, is when we lose them. I’m sure she will be watching you though and you will feel her spirit in those beautiful skies, on the wind and amid the twinkling stars.
Much love
Karen x
I am so sad for you and Mr. Lovee, and Mattie. I, too, have lost precious ones, and it is always heartbreaking. Yes, she will remain in your heart and remembrences forever and ever more. Thank you for sharing which helps us keep in touch with what is real and important.
Vanessa…..are you sure Baby is not there anymore? Listen…look better…search…Baby is everywhere she used to be , she left thousands sign of her presence …years of unforgettable moments….yesterday I saw a movie called: Me and Marley, and suddenly thought about that moment…well I’m not sure I’ll be able to write and publish images with the same love and deep feelings you did….she has a wonderful friend and sister :YOU!!!!!
Vanessa, I know what it’s like.
Many many hugs.
She had the happiest life she could ever imagine. 🙂
I`m so sorry about your loss Vanessa. I know how much a dog (or any animal) can mean to someone, and it`s heartbreaking to know that you and your family are feeling this loss now. Baby was truly an amazing dog, with a great personality.
Cherish all the wonderful memories that you have together, and give yourself time to heal.
I lost my wonderful dog 15 years ago, and I still cry sometimes because I miss him so much. He has a huge place in my heart, and in difficult times he appears in my dreams and makes everything better.
I`m sure Baby will look after her little family from above. Remember she`s still with you no matter what.
Many hugs and healing thoughts from me to you.
Oh, I’m busy brushing away tears to type. I’m so sorry for your loss. I know EXACTLY how you feel. I just lost my cat – my own baby – a month and a half ago. I miss him dreadfully. Every day. He was the one to curl up in my lap, the one I never meant to adopt, but he saw me coming to pick up his brother to take home and while we tried to fish the other cat out from beneath a piece of furniture I noticed this other kitten standing on his hind legs batting at me trying to get my attention. He wanted to go home with me, too! I never though my parents would let me take home two, but my mom saw he was special, too and so I took him home as well and he turned out to be my Best Friend, he followed me everywhere and I miss him so much. It’s amazing how animals can touch your heart so deeply. He’s buried in our back yard near the cherry tree. I wish he was still by my side like his brother is right now. Soon I’ll have to say goodbye to him as well, I know.
Don’t apologize for not being in the mood for a party. I’ve been depressed for over a month now, but I can tell you, it does get a *little* easier as time goes by.
Rest in Peace, Baby.
Nicki
Sweetie, I love you!
Your sorrow touches me deeply. Ilit a candle for the passing on Saturday. I used to breed cats, and I’ve gone through the same emotions myself. If it’s any consolation just recently I’ve been having the same dream over and over. I go to the bottom of my garden, and call my kitties, and they run to me, and I feed them all. They’re all there. In my Belief, every soul goes to the Summerlands, waiting to be reborn. I believe with all my heart that the Summerlands must be very like your garden, so Baby will be at home. As long as you remember her, she will not die. Blessings dear friend.
Oh Vanessa, I am so sorry. Pets are our children, we love them, they love us, and our lives are in symbioses with each other. When they leave, everything seems out of balance.
When I lost my beloved Gandalf 2 years ago, someone sent me this poem:
Four Feet in Heaven
Your favorite chair is vacant now…
No eager barks to greet me.
No softly padded paws to run
Ecstatically to meet me.
No coaxing rubs, no plaintive cry
Will say it’s time for feeding.
I’ve put away your bowl, and all
The things you won’t be needing;
But I will miss you little friend,
For I could never measure
The happiness you brought me,
The comfort and the pleasure.
And since God put you here to share
In earthly joy and sorrow;
I’m sure there’ll be a place for you
In Heaven’s bright tomorrow…- Alice E. Chase
I send you hugs at this very hard time.
I am so, so deeply sorry. I know she will forever be in your heart…
-Krista
So so sorry. She looks exactly like my Heidi from my childhood. I was devastated when Heidi passed away. I know it’s so hard.
Darling, I am so sorry for your loss. This post was a beautiful tribute to a wonderful friend. There is a beautiful book I bought myself when my Bobby went over the Rainbow Bridge – it is called ‘Guardians of Being’…words by Eckhart Tolle and art by Patrick McDonnell – I found it very spiritually comforting. My heart goes out to you, Lovee and Matty at this time x
My heart is with you.
And you will always be in Baby’s heart as she is in yours. You were both so very blessed.
Hugs and Love,
Beth in Va
Dear Vanessa,
I’m so very sorry for your great loss. Your Baby was a treasure. She was so lucky to have you in her life and as her devoted caretaker. I’m especially sensitive to this right now as I watch my beloved Albie begin to deteriorate at almost age 17. I’ve only had him in my life for almost six years and I’m praying for more time. But I know he’ll let me know when he is ready. I lost my other beloved girl dog whom I’d had for almost 16 years a few years ago so I will not have another dog to cling to when Albie goes. I am so happy that you have Matty. I know it helps tremendously.
Thank you for such a heartfelt post. It gives me strength.
All my very best,
Holly
Vanessa, my dear
I’m so sorry to hear of your loss. I too am crying with you. I lost my beloved feline companion of nearly 17 years almost 3 weeks ago. My heart will miss her forever.
Memories grow where footsteps leave the earth. I share in your sorrow.
Big Hugs! =D
~Kellie
So many of us are so grateful to you for your inspiration and for bringing us all together here in this world.
The darling face that greated us on your blog will be missed by all of us. (those dazzling eyes)
You and Mister must have enormous hearts to have been loved by her. Anyway…so sorry…
So, so sorry to hear about Baby…. She is in heaven and not feeling any pain, now. She was such a lucky dog, to have such wonderful owners who loved her so much. xxxooo
“When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.â€
A quote from Kahlil Gibran. She was your delight. You will hear her feet and her breathing some days. She will always be near, just in a different form. Love is eternal. Take care dear Vanessa and hugs to all of you.
Kathy
My deepest and sincerest condolences on the earthly loss of the furbaby of your heart.
Her love is always around you, enabling you to reach out and love any and all around you.
Her love is pouring down upon you and yours much like the coming Monsoon rain will pour down on her special garden.
I’m so sorry for your loss and Heaven’s gain. Also glad to see that we agree that you will see her again. I’m sure that my cat’s are part of her welcoming committee at the Rainbow Bridge.
Thinking of you.
Dear, dear Vanessa, Mr Lovee and Matty, I was so sad to hear about precious baby and I send my love and wishes to you and to baby’s beautiful soul. May her journey be sweet and beautiful.
Thank you for sharing her with us.
I will now go and cuddle my Galibeast and be grateful for each day with him.
I am so sad for you as I read this. Baby was indeed a blessing and will remain in your heart. I am so happy she is buried nearby. I have a burial ground nearby for dear departed pets and it brings me such comfort. I sit her with a new big guy cat on my lap and he is saying “why are you crying”. Time will heal and Baby did open your hearts.
Sweet Vanessa, I am so sorry for your loss. Someday your heart will not ache so badly, and your memories will be sweeter then. Think of that when you are so sad. Thank you for sharing your darling Baby, and yourselves, with us. She was special, and you are, too!!
Love, Andrea
Oh Vanessa, I couldn’t help but cry as I read this post. I didn’t want to hear it, I knew how much your heart would ache. No words are sufficient at times like these so I’ll just pray for you and Mr. Lovee to not ache so much. I’ve been through it and my children and I stayed up with our beloved Buffy night and day for almost a week before he passed. We didn’t want to miss one moment while he was alive. I’m so sorry you had to face this and please don’t worry about the tea party. We understand. Twyla
This post had me in tears. It’s so hard losing a furry friend, especially as they become such a big part of the family. Big hug.
I am so sorry that Baby had to leave you. My heart goes out to you, Mister Lovee and Matty.
blessings
~*~
To my friends via the web,
I too am wiping the tears away as I know the pain you are living with. You were so blessed to have Baby in your life and Baby was equally as blessed to have you both in her life. Our furry kids bring so much joy to our lives, but it is so devastating to have to say goodbye to them.
Hugs to you both,
Zoe
I am so deeply sorry to read your news today; truly Baby will live on in your hearts and in those of her many fans. She truly found her soul mates with your family and I know that you were all greatly enriched by the experience. Sincerest hugs, Jane
So very sorry to hear about baby, hugs, Penny
Vanessa,
I am so sorry. I know that pain. My little twinkles who I got in Hong Kong was my little soul mate. She moved with us to Canada, lived there for five years, but when we returned to America, she passed away shortly before we moved into our new home.
A soul mate…When I was a little girl I was crippled and I had something called Kohler’s Disease, a bone disorder. When the vet showed me the ex-ray of Twinkles leg, the film showed the bone disorder. The vet said she only had a short time left with us before the bone would totally disconnect and cause severe nerve damage. I stood looking at the ex-ray and thought that she truly was my soul mate.
Grief is a terrible thing, and the only thing that repairs it is time. One day when I was so sad that I thought my eyes couldn’t handle another tear, I had an image. The image was the Lord holding my Twinkles in His arms. From that moment on I knew that Twinkles was in heaven whole, romping around, and I would see her again.
Most recently our horse Dapper passed away. My daughter was in so much grief, we all were. Then a close friend of mine lost her daughter to cancer. She told me that before her daughter passed she said that she had dreamt she was in heaven and a white horse came to greet her.
Life is filled with so many reminders how incredibly protected we are every day and that God winks and reminds us how much He loves us. I know that Mr. Lovee tells you these things. He is very wise.
Vanessa, you will see Baby again, but now Baby is whole and just like the puppy she once was. Perhaps she is romping around with my Dapper and Twinkles.
You and Mr. Lovee are in my prayers.
Karen
I am so very sorry about the loss of Baby.
It’s so heartbreaking to lose a fur baby.
My heart is with you. It’s hard to be strong when you lose that unconditional love but happy memories will keep your heart full.
Hugs,
Becca
Vanessa,
I am so, so sorry to hear of your loss. I have became the mommy to 2 fur babies in the last 3 months. And the strange thing is, is that I have NEVER been a dog lover before! Now, I can’t EVER think of my life with out Gracie or Bella. I love them so much- hard to believe that a LOVE can be so strong for an animal- But it can. So I know what you must be going through and I will keep you in my thoughts. Stay strong and remember the good times. Take care.
Lisa
My heart goes out to you sweet Vanessa.
What a blessed life Baby had to spend it with you, Mister Lovee and Matty.
so sorry for the loss of your furry Baby
all memories of her will be in your dreams forever
Karey
aww, Vanessa, I’m so sorry. I know that precious love.. and I know that painful loss.. I’m always so thankful to God just for creating animals and allowing them to love us like they do! hope your hearts heal soon.
HUGS
vivian
Tears are just pouring out of my eyes, my heart breaks for you and I am so very sad and sorry… I know that depth of love for a fur baby and there is nothing to compare, they are little angels with the purest of hearts… I know you will see her again someday and she will try to curl up her big golden self on your little flannel and lace covered lap and you’ll have her forever… Sending you love and prayers for healing… Chrissi
My heart breaks for you. I know too well the sadness and pain you feel. If only they could live forever. The Rainbow Bridge is a brighter place, and one day you’ll be together again. Rest in peace, sweet Baby.
It surprised me how upset I became to hear of the loss of your Baby….I guess it’s because of how much I love dogs and know how much they add to our lives. I’ve lost a few precious dogs through the years, so can imagine how sad you are to lose such a precious angel. Thank you for sharing Baby with us all. She is so very sweet.
My heart goes out to you and your’s….sending many hugs and much love your way.
Tracie
Dear Vanessa, please accept my deepest symphathy on the loss of your precious Baby. I know how hard it must be for you, Mr. Lovee and Matty. After sharing so much with her for a decade, life must be difficult to bare.
I’m sending you tons of love and hugs your way and know that you are in my prayers.
Hugsss….
Vania
Vanessa,
Your Baby looks so much like our Oso. I bawled my eyes out reading your memorial! It was beautiful and so very touching. I’d like to think that one day we will all be reunited with the loved ones that have gone before us.
My heart goes out to you and your family. I will be praying for you to have strength, peace, and many happy memories.
Warm Hugs,
Sylvia
Ms. Vanessa…..I am so very very sorry for your loss. I just lost both of my doggies a few months ago…..1 week apart….both of them had very long full lives….and I believe Dusty died from a broken heart. They are both over the Rainbow Bridge…..I believe playing with your Baby….waiting to see us again. My heart is heavy for your loss….oh how I understand your pain.
Vanessa, Mister Lovee, and Matty ~
My heart has felt that very pain that you are experiencing 5 times through out my life. It’s not easy and it’s very raw for a while. Let the memories flow and help heal the pain. Here’s a little quote that I keep close to me for times like this. I hope it brings you some peace.
“Perhaps they are not stars but rather openings in Heaven where the love of our lost ones pours through and shines down upon us to let us know they are happy.”
~Eskimo Legend
Wishing you many starry nights,
~Allie
What a beautiful tribute! Indeed, Baby is enjoying that big puppy party in the sky. Our pup, Spencer, hitched a ride up that way back in January. I imagine he’s enjoying the all-you-can-chew rawhide buffet and is chasing squirrels in his free time.
You don’t need to be apologize for being absent from the Tea Party. Family First!
You created a wonderful, magical, and exquisite creative springboard for so many people. Quite a gift! Thank you.
It is always incredibly sad when a loved one passes, even more so I think when one who loves *us* back so completely and unconditionally. {{{{HUGS}}}} Baby has crossed the Rainbow Bridge and will be waiting for you there…
Mister and Miss V,
I am so sorry you had to say goodbye to your Baby…I do know what that feels like as I have experienced the same. There are no words, but the memories last a lifetime. I too, evolved as a furry parent because of my beloved dog Lily, and I got to be with her at home too. Your hearts will heal, but they will never be the same. and that is ok. you wouldn’t have it any other way.
sending lots of hugs, lots……
Matty will make you laugh in the midst of your tears, which will just help the healing process along.
…my eyes are ablur with tears at the beauty of your words…of a life celebrated, remembered and cherished…of love that runs true and deep….of life’s lessons and loss…
I am so sorry you had to write them…
I’m holding your close in my thoughts…
Cameron
Vaneesa, you have my deepest sympathies. I will send my best wishes for your family to heal quickly.
I am so sorry for the loss of your beloved family member. It’s never easy to say goodbye, but I just know somewhere over that rainbow Baby will be waiting to greet you and teach you all new things.
This was a touching and beautiful tribute, the love of your family shines through this darkness like the sun. I cried reading this. I will keep you all in my thoughts.
My heart goes out to all who knew and loved Baby. I know first-hand how absolutely painful and soul changing it is to lose a furry loved one. Wishing you strength to heal…
Vanessa, I am so very sorry…I remember it all too vividly myself, and can only try to console you by saying that after the pain has lost it’s edge, the memories make it all worth while. But you know that already. 🖤
Lots of hugs…
My heart is so broken for you and your family. I don’t know if it will help, but one of my favorite quotes that gets me through the sad times is :
” Don’t cry because it’s over
Smile because it happened.”
how do i explain my tears to 2 of my children who just walked in on me crying infront of the computer…i have been following your blog for almost 2 years and feel love for your fur baby too. i also feel a friendship for you and your mister so my heart is breaking for you.
hope that your raw pain passes soon. thinking of you.
xxrosey
Vanessa, I am so sorry for yas and Mr.s loss. Baby was so special and I adored the stories ya shared. Sending warm hugs and lots of love.
Poe
Vanessa,
Your web site has been a light in my already incredible life. I to have been through the pain of losing a deep soul mate who came to me in dog form. I cry now thinking of her and it was ten years ago that we had to put her down when she was fourteen and started to hemmorage. She left us with my husband and I wrapped around her just as you experienced this last weekend. The wonderful thing is that since she left a child and a new dog have captured my soul. Their beauty and deep love fill my life with joy and mellow my pain at losing my beautiful dog Balin, but I never forget her and I am blessed to have such an angel sent to share my experience here on earth. You to have been blessed and as the new angels move in to your life, time and their soulful eyes will help with the pain.
your baby is in heaven now…
Oh Vanessa, I’m so sorry. It was clear in your photos that Baby was a beautiful and special dog, and your tribute post to her was lovely. Love and hugs to you all as you grieve.
Rest in peace Baby x
So sorry to hear about the loss of your fur baby . A beautiful spirit showed in her through your photos.
Sending my heartfelt condolances
<3Michelle
oh my sweet friend and Mr Lovee… I am so so so so so so sorry. I cried and cried when I read your post. I understand what you are going through. It is so hard losing our loved furry babies. I grew up with my “sister” from the age of 4 – 21. At almost 35, I’m still not over it and I have a tear about her every so often.
Sending you hugs and squishy squeezes, and some tears from here.
Love, Natasha xo
Vanessa,
So sorry about Baby
My thoughts and prayers for you and Lovey
Our fur friends are such a part of our hearts –at least we will always have that love in our hearts.
I’m so sorry for your loss of Baby. What a wonderful tribute to her. She will always be with you in spirit.
So sorry for your and Mr. Lovee and Matty’s loss.
Your precious Baby always looked so happy in all the photos – you truly gave her a wonderful home filled with love.
Your blog readers who have come to know her through your posts will miss her also.
Please take your time as long as you need in reading posts about the Tea Party.
Dear Vanessa,
It was really hard to read your post and not tear up…. I remember what it was like 2 years ago when we had to put my yellow lab Scout to rest… We had him since I was about 12 years old, so he was around pretty much half my life. It was a brother lost, and I remember the night we were driving to the vet to say our last goodbyes, holding his paw in the back of my moms truck, knowing that it would be the last time I would get to see him, and hold him… but he was suffering and it was the only thing left to do 🙁
I hope your heart heals, it might not be soon, but at least you will have the memories of Baby to cherish forever….
-Justina
La Boheme Magique
Sending you a big hug and hopeful thoughts. We are in love with our furry guy too…and I know it will be a hard day when we have to say goodbye. Baby made the right choice in choosing you…what a lovely final resting place.
Dear Vanessa, Tears are rolling down my face as I read this post. I am soooo very sorry for your loss. What a beautiful life you all shared with her and thank you for letting us get to know baby through your eyes. It is indescribable the love one can have for our furry loved one. I rescued my sweet little Angel 8 yrs ago and I love her like no other. You will be in my prayers.
Sending you hugs, peace and comfort to you, Mr. Lovee and Matty.
Evelyn
dearest vanessa and mr. lovee – i am so terribly sad for your loss, as someone who has lost a dog for the first time recently, your post brang tears to me eyes, for you and for the universal sadness that cracks open our hearts when we loose a furry companion. may blessings and love surround you in this time of sadness and know that the pain will lessen and you will always be albe to find baby in that place in your heart that holds a part of her spirit. goddess bless, chella
Dear Vanessa, Lovee and little Matty,
I cried as soon as I started to read this post. I am so truly, truly sorry. As mom to two furry babies, I know how you feel. I have been through the heart-wrenching pain before, and I am virtually squeezing you in a tight bear hug. I smiled, however, looking into the eyes of that sweet face. It is a special love that only a pet can bring. And I smiled when I read how you first met…and then met again. I know your sweet girl is some place safe – please try and take comfort in knowing that. And she smiles upon your loving family each and every day. My love and sympathies go out to all of you….Theresa
I am so sorry, losing an animal family member is awful. The depth of the pain in mourning their death is only eclipsed by the love their life brought.
Rest In Peace Baby.
~D
I am soo sorry for your loss my heart breaks for you and what a beautiful tribute> Thanx for sharing Isabel
Sending a hug across the miles. You know that she found you, made you her family, and although she had to leave before you, the time will come that you will be reunited. While she waits there will be adventures and friends to keep her company.
Oh my dear friend, I’m in tears over your loss. I’m so, so very sorry for your loss of sweet Baby. I don’t have any elegant words to give you comfort…..I wish I knew what to say…but please know that you are in my thoughts in your time of loss, and that your beautiful Baby touched my life with her sweetness and light…I loved reading about her and seeing all her lovely pictures….she was the most darling of souls!!
Warm thoughts of healing to you, Sweet friend.
awww…V and mister, when I read your note I was worried about Baby. I knew it would take something such as this to keep you from being the wonderful hostess that you always are. I am sad for you. Having lost our doggie early this year I feel your pain. It has taken us six months to be able to talk freely about what we miss about our Chaco and laugh at some of his antics. Take your time and allow the room and time for grief. My heart goes out to you both….hugs..and hugs.
So sorry for your loss. What a wonderful post…I love how she found her way back to you~ how sweet!! We recently lost our dog, so I can understand how you’re feeling. It sounds like Baby had a great life and was well loved 🙂
Take care,
Kristen
I’m so sorry, Vanessa. I knew time was short was short for Baby, but it is still so sad when the time comes . . .
Hugs, Kym
Thinking of you at this Sad Time.
Take Care.
Dearest Vanessa, I am shedding tears with you all right now. I am so sorry to hear this sad news…Baby was such a gem! I always get sweet comments when I send out one of her postcards and I always enjoy reading about her and seeing pictures of her sweet face on your blog. You’ll be in my thoughts as your heal! I know how hard it is to lose a puppy family member…I missed school for several days once, when we lost our beloved lab gypsy.
Biggest hugs to you, Matty and the Mister,
Jamie 🙂
Vanessa, I am so sorry to hear about your loss! My family has had to deal with a number of losses recently… and one of them was indeed a beloved dog. It is an amazing thing how much love and acceptance can be felt from an animal. They truly do touch your heart in a way that is utterly profound. Your burial place for baby is absolutely beautiful!
This entry is by far the most touching blog entry I have ever read! Thank you for being willing to share your heart with us!
Kyly
Vanessa, I am so terribly sorry about Baby. I am an animal over too and our cat is just like a member of the family. He’s had his health issues too recently and for a short time we thought we were going to lose him. But, he’s going to be with us for a little longer. I know you have a great void where Baby was, but yes I believe we will one day be reunited with all of the pets we have ever owned. Have you ever read “The Rainbow Bridge”? I’m sure you have, but in case you haven’t, just go to Google and type it in and you’ll get the poem. Take care.
Dearest Vanessa, Mister Lovey and Matty,
Our hearts are so sad for the loss of your Baby. May your beautiful memories of her bring you comfort.
Our hearts are with you,
Betty & Victor
ohhh my…Im so very sorry for your loss…I actually cried when reading this, I have been an avid follower of yours for about 2 years now, and my heart is saddened by this unfortunate loss..but she is no longer suffering, and neither are ya’ll (by watching her suffer)…
I send happy thoughts and prayers to you, mr lovee, and matty…
you are truly blessed to have such a wonderful little family…and it is inspiring..
XOXOXO
~Kristin~
No words can express the pain I know you and your family are going through. You have touched many lives through your blog and letting us get to know you and baby. Thank you for your friendship and know that many are praying for you during this time of loss. I am sure my Bradley was there to greet Baby and they are having such fun together. Much love!
I am so sorry for your loss. My heart hurts for you, Mister and Matty. Baby will continue to look over you and visit in your dreams. Keep her near by remembering everyday how she touched your life and soul.
Blessings to you,
Wende S
Dearest Vanessa, Mr. Lovee and Matty~
We send you all our love for the wonderful life that Baby had with you. She was truly blessed to have you as her family.
Much Love,
LuLu, The Commander, Apricot, Tommy, Babie, Olivia and Harlow
🖤🖤🖤 That’s all…just love. **blows kisses** Deb
I am so sorry Vanessa.
Your house looks the the greatest place in the world for a dog to live. I am sure Baby that the happiest life there,
Hugs
oh, vanessa, i could hardly read this post through the tears. patches and cash are right here with me and we are all sending love and hugs to all of you.
i know this will be a difficult time for all of you. baby was lucky to have you all in her life and i know that she showed it every day, by giving the love you gave her right back. take care of yourself and know that we all understand what you are going through.
hugs from amber, patches, and cash…
dearest Vanessa…..I am so sorry for your loss. Nothing that I could say or do will take the pain away. Just know that all your blogging friends have come to love Baby and she will be deeply missed.
Take care of yourself little girl.
Laraine (((((hugs))))
Your post brought tears to my eyes. I just want to send heart healing thoughts and my condolances to you all. I’m sure she’s still with you all in spirit. {{{HUGS}}}
So very sorry about Baby. Your tribute is so lovely it brings tears to my eyes. I too lost a fur baby of 15 years on Monday, needless to say it hasn’t been a good week. My thoughts and prayers go out to you, the Mister and Matty.
Hugs to all,
Tracy M.
I am so very sorry for your loss Vanessa. That was a beautiful tribute to Baby.
What a wonderful Mom and Dad she had.
What a wonderful life.
~Shari
Oh Vanessa….
In and out of the bloggy world go I …..but….I had to stop and tell you how sorry I am about your Baby!
I still miss my Elvis gone now 3 years. I have not been able to replace my furry baby yet.
So I am sending much love!
Lisa-Gabrielle
I am so sorry for your loss. Hugs.
I am so, so incredibly sorry, Vanessa.
Dear Vanessa and Family,
I am terribly sorry to hear of your great loss. I know all to well the big, gaping hole it leaves in your heart and your life, but I’m sure you know that each day, it will get better and you will always remember with fond memories all the happy times!
And rest assured that the party will go on!!
Big Hugs to you!
~🖤~
Kristal
Dear V.& Lovee
You need to remember you gave Baby the best life she could have ever had. No on could have loved her the way the two of you did. Baby was very lucky to have lived such a wonderful life. You gave that comfort to her. She was a happy dog, living a happy dog’s life.
I am very sorry for your loss.
Sincerely, Trish
Dear Vanessa and family, My heart has broken into a million pieces for you. I understand the depth of your love and joy for your precious Baby. (We call our darling Pretty Girl.) I am so very sorry for your loss.
This is my first visit to your blog and as I read your tender hearted words, I feel as though I have met a true kindred spirit. I will return often. If you would like a new friend, I am here. swopemelmel@aol.com
Warm regards, Melanie
I can’t imagine how difficult it has been to write this post. The photos are beautiful and they show so well how much love there was between you. My heart breaks for you.
Your post was beautiful, Vanessa 🙂 These furry ones we love are as much family as every human being we love. I understand where your heart is. Lots of hugs 🙂
I am so happy for you that you had such a wonderful, loving relationship in your life and I share your sorrow at the loss of Baby. Thank you for sharing so much of your life with those of us who visit you in blog land. I know that that takes a lot of courage in this day of mistrust and concern. I send you loving healing thoughts.
Oh Miss V. I am so sorry to hear about Baby. I know how heart breaking it is to lose a beloved pet. Know that you are in my thoughts. You will see Baby again some day. Bless you and Mr. Lovee.
Oh Vanessa! I am so sorry this day you have been dreading came. My heart hurts for you and I pray you will move through your grief quickly and be able to just enjoy all of the lovely memories of Baby. Hugs.
Vanessa, Mr.Lovee & Matty
My deepest sympathies to you all for the loss of beautiful Baby.
Our pets truly become family. To lose them hurts as much as losing anyone.
I’m glad you were all together when it happened, that she was surrounded by so much love.
xoxo
Love, Gillian
sorry for your loss…. happy to read of your love
best wishes for your healing time
Miss Vanessa…my heart goes out to you and Mr. Lovee. As so many others have already stated, I will never forget the photos of Baby you posted which is what makes this loss so personal to all of your blog friends. We all “knew” Baby.
Her passing is felt by many…
<3
when you read all these messages
when you get to this one
well
those are simply
my tears
running
on
down
the
page
🖤
worry about nothing
you said it all
my tears did not
wash out
a bit
of
it
🖤
Sweet Vanessa,
We are all grieving with you for your precious Baby. How lucky you all were to have had each other for so many lovely years…
Hugs to you and Mr. Lovee. Matty will take such good care of you both.
xoxo Debbie
Oh, I am just so sorry! I didn’t deal well when I lost my first cat back in high school. Your dog was precious, & I love the story of how Baby came back home. Very cool & a thing to treasure!
Vanessa and Mr Lovee.. I am so sorry. I truly know how you feel. It is amazing the things animals teach us and bring to our lives. I am so sad for you. Time is the only healer and soon happy memories will replace the whole left in your hearts.
Take care, Hugs, gail
Take the time you need, and more. There is nothing more inportant than love. We’ll be here when you return.
I just discovered your blog, etc. although I have seen some of your awesomely beautiful artwork in Somerset….Your post about Baby brought tears to my eyes – she was much loved, and I can so relate to that as we have a 2 yr old furbaby which converted me to a dog lover…You and Baby will be reunited according to the Rainbow Bridge story below – I sincerely believe in it – I am in AZ too! Mary L at mklecuyer@hotmail.com/http://doggandponyshow.blogspot.com
The Rainbow Bridge Story — Paul C. Dahm
The belief as told in the story is a green meadow paradise that exists just outside of Heaven. Rainbow Bridge is both the name of the meadow and an adjoining bridge connecting the meadow to Heaven…Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals that had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor.
Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again,just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance.
His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers.
Suddenly he begins to run from the group,
flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet,
you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again.
The happy kisses rain upon your face;
your hands again caress the beloved head,
and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together….
Your beautiful words and pictures about Baby have really touched. I’m so sorry for your loss.
Vanessa
This is maybe the most heart wrenching and also beautiful post that I have ever read. What a beautiful angel Baby was. Every once and awhile there is that one special furry friend who seems to be a gift from Above. You are correct when you say that all of the pain is worth every minute that you had your precious Baby in your lives. I hope that you find peace soon but know that the pain will take months to heal. Wishing you the very best at this time of grief.
Denise
So sorry for your loss. I wish your family peace and healing.
much love, Angela
Vanessa Darling,
I’m so very sorry – I know how hard it was to say goodbye to your sweet Baby. If it helps, it sounds like she chose the time to go which, in a way, is so much better than if you’d had to make that choice yourselves.
By planting a memorial garden around her, you’ll always remember the sweet times.
I’m thinking of you…
{{{HUGS}}}
Kate
What a beautiful tribute to Baby. So sorry for your loss and many prayers for all of your family.
just sending hugs Vanessa……
Veronica
xxx
My heart is so sad for your loss, but rejoicing over the love and bond you and baby shared 🙂
Hugs,
Tracy
I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you all.
Baby had a wonderful and long life, and was very much loved.
Hugs! Your post is a beautiful reflection of her gorgeous soul.
The more we allow our animal friends into our hearts, the more it hurts when they leave. That’s as it should be. They are as important as any of us.
Cry your treasured tears.
Melissa
Poor, sweet Baby is in heaven with all the other dear, departed, beloved pets. Baby, say hi to Katiekat, Candy, Gretta, Maymay, and Sally for me. jennifer
Oh Vanessa you should not feel guilty at all! Baby is much more important than the tea parties. I am so so sorry. Your beautiful post made me cry as I am sure it did many others. We feel for you and are here for you whenever you need. I am sure that Baby is very happy now that she isn’t in anymore pain and she will be with you always.
how the tears do flow.
so we embrace them
recall the memories
turn the page to a new chapter
see all of the lessons she allowed you experience…
yes you have done all that…
now do that tomorrow
and the next day
and the next….
draw close to Mr. Lovee and Matty
take the time to cherish the love you all have
and
never
you
mind
about getting to all the tea parties…
they will be here
whenever you desire to attend.
my heart is with you all~
Tina
Vanessa,
I am so sorry to hear about Baby’s passing. She was such a wonderful gift to you, Mister and Matty. I know she will stay in your hearts forever. Many comforting thoughts and hugs are sent your way.
I am so sorry for you and yours…
I use this quote to get me through the hard times, I hope it can help you little as well…
“Don’t cry because it’s over. Smile because it happened.”
Dr Seuss
Louise
I am choking back tears … I lost my Pepper in May of 2006 and this brings back those memories… they are never far….
My heart aches for you.. not just for you but us too… BABY was a part of our lives also … we watched her play and grow and have fun and she kept us laughing … I will miss that…
I know its hard and it hurts… the pain can be great… just try to find comfort in knowing that as much as she taught you … she had a beautiful life being loved by you… that she came back.. and found you … she knew you were home … she knew she would be happy with you … you gave to her as much as she gave to you…
I wish I could hug you … I wish I could be there with you … I can only tell you that I am thinking of you and keeping you in my thoughts as you grieve … allow yourself to do that… let your tears water her little garden… she would like that..
LOVE AND HUGS
JO
so desperately and helplessly sorry to hear about baby’s passing on.
It is so very difficult to have to experience this … sending you all peaceful and healing thoughts …
Sweet girl, I am so glad you got to know such love. Imagine how many people live their whole lives and never, never get to experience such a miracle. We are lucky, those of us who have been gifted with the immense unconditional love of a pet. I am a better person because of my Starry Girl, and am missing her now as much as I ever did when she passed a few months ago. Baby will be the benchmark for all others to come, that first, sweet love of a precious companion, and each one will also leave their mark on your heart, enduring, forever, until we meet them again over the rainbow bridge.
Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there; I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn’s rain.
When you awaken in the morning’s hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry.
I am not there. I did not die.
Loving you ~ Eileen @ Star’s Fault
I read this post the other day and I was sobbing so hard I couldn’t think straight. I read everyone elses comments and everything I wanted to say to you has been said..and so beautifully.
But today I thought about your loss of Baby all day long. I work at a vet clinic and unfortunately I see the loss of a loved one too often, yet it still hurts my heart. I have several furry babies at home but I still grieve for my Maddie. There will never be another dog/soulmate like her…you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Deepest Sympathies, Cindi
You will see Baby again.
Tears and Hugs!
I haven’t visited your blog in quite some time, and am so sorry to read about your furry baby.
Having recently lost one of our own, I know the pain that you’re feeling all too well.
Sincere sympathy to you and your dear Vanessa.
Ahhhh Vanessa….So sorry to hear about sweet Baby~~~she has been with you for so many adventures, tea parties and your every day lives~
hold tight to your fond memories and precious photos~~they will become more dear with each passing day.
Thinking of you all…
Hugs and prayers coming your way,
Kay Ellen
Lady V, I am sorry about you and Mr.Lovee losing your Baby. I know how much it hurts to lose our furry family. Baby is free now, I know her spirit is close by to watch over you. Sending you much love.
Vanessa,
I have recently fallen in love with your beautiful blog. The day you posted this my mother called to tell me they are just waiting for me to come home (if I want them too) to put my 16 year old itty bitty dachshund to sleep.(I work in theater, and am at summerstock) Your post is beautiful, and captures things I hadn’t been able to articulate. It was so strange to see your post immediately after I got off the phone with my mother. I cried (am crying again) but am strangely comforted. So thank you, and I’m sorry for your loss.
Elizabeth
I’m so sorry for you. I stumbled upon your blog and had to read on. I know your loss and pain as I too have suffered many times over for my pets. You will indeed see Baby again! She’s over the Rainbow Bridge now and is with so many other loving wonderful creatures – but she’s watching you be assured. Take care
Tears – Love xx
oH Vanessa i cried for your families loss…. Baby will be running free in that garden where all furry family memebers go to wait for those who loved them and cared for them….they wait to join them again….
How blessed Baby was to have you all to love ….
As I read your post I can feel your pain. I too am an animal lover and have been there. We currently have 3 dogs and 3 cats-all rescued. We have no children-only the furry kind. Know that you gave with all your heart and you will meet again. I encourage you to adopt another pet, maybe two. It seems that you have a lot of love to give and your other dog is greiving too. It will help you and be a tribute to your loss to help another. We’ve had 3 dogs for a year now and it really makes a difference when one goes passes on. My deepest sympathy for your loss-Baby seemed to be so special and I’m glad Baby found you! God Bless!
I know how you feel. I sincerely believe you all will be reunited with Baby one day. So much love is a powerful thing. You’ll meet her on Rainbow Bridge and she’ll tell you how much fun she’s been having while she’s waited on you to get there. Love and Hugs to you all.
You will see her again… she is waiting for you by the Rainbow Bridge:
Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together….
Author unknown…
I am so sorry for your loss. Baby must have had a wonderfully happy life, especially once she chose your family to live with. My thoughts are with you……
Ohhhh…I have been away from blogging and I come back to hear this sad news. My heart is with you…I feel your pain.I can only say that I know she had the most wonderful time with you and Mr. Lovee…the most wonder wonderfilled time a dog could ever have. Peace to you and Mr. Lovee
My tears are mingled with yours!
All My Love Cherished Children!!
xox
You blessed dears. So thoughtful and selfless. We are loving you through your loss. Thank goodness for stars like her to shine through the dark times. Blessings to you all from friends here.
What a wonderful tribute to Baby! All your memories will help you heal. It sounds like Baby picked the perfect family for herself. She also showed you a love that is not possible with humans. Teresa
Vanessa,
I, like many others, find it hard to write through our tears after reading about Baby. She was a beautiful girl with a beautiful spirit. Also like many, I understand how you feel. You will never stop missing Baby, but there will come a time when the memories will feel full of sweetness instead of full of sorrow.
I am truly sorry.
Sarah
Please don’t feel guilty. We’ll still be here when you’re ready & able to come visit. My heart breaks for you in this. There is nothing worse than separation from one you hold so dear, even if it’s not forever. Sending you love & hugs & comfort.
I don’t know if you will even read the whole way down through 200 comments. If you do you already know there is nothing , nothing at all that can be said to ease your pain.
No words can express the sadness I feel for you and your family right now. But you can be comforted by the fact that she will be waiting for you at another gate someday. Remember she chose you. She will be yours forever.
Marianne
Oh Oh no! Oh No! Sending hugs and love your way…..she will not be forgotten by you or by so many of us whose lives she has touched through you.
Sweet Dreams Baby.
We know you will be fine, we weep for ourselves and for the family you left behind..and every tear is worth it!
Kiss Noises to you Vanessa,
Linda
Vannessa…I’ve never read a more heartfelt and beautiful tribute…it brought me (a tough-as-nails chick) to tears. I really believe there is no love more pure than that between a beloved pet such as your Baby and their person. My heart aches for you, sweet girl.
Oh Vanessa, I’m so so sorry. We’ve lost many “Babys” and it doesn’t ever get easier. It sounds like you gave her a wonderful life and a beautiful resting place after life – that’s what really matters in the end. I pray the sadness in your heart will be lifted by all of the moments of joy you had with her. Big hugs!
Oh that is so sad…I’m so sorry for your lost. I can imagine how you feel and how much you loved this pretty little one…and I’m sure you’ll see each other again in an other life 🙂 I’ve just discovered this blog, and must however say that I’ll come to visit again 🙂
Hello Vanessa,
SIGH….
I feel so sorry for you all. I know how heartbreaking it is to loose a pet. We are catlovers and lost some of our friends in the past. The last cat we had was 13 years when he died.
For people who don’t have pets, it’s hard to understand that these animals have their own personality, their own soul and they take an important place in your life and in your heart.
It’s good that she rests in your garden… ours does too and it makes feeling them a bit closer.
strength from Belgium
Inge
I am crying my eyes out. Such beautiful memorial words to Baby! She was a beloved member of your family and I am so very sorry for your loss!
I know its hard…. but you will start to laugh about the funny things that Baby used to get up to… I really feel for you all. Baby was blessed to have you as her family, she came back to you because she knew you were the family for her. My precious dog Mollie sends lots of licks to you all. Thinking of you… lots of love, Olive xxxx
Sending you lots of love and big hugs all over the ocean Vanesse!
Oh the heartbreak of watching one you love slip away…Thank you for sharing the tale of how Baby chose you and Mr. Lovee…our furry friends bless us everyday with lessons and love. Hold Matty close.
Oh Vanessa…I’m so sorry for your loss. I loved Baby posts and it just breaks my heart. My thoughts are with you and Mr. Lovee and Matty. Oh jeez.
Hello well Im Janet from my Blog Singingwoods..and I found the quintessentialmagpie by mosying around then fell down the Rabbitt hole to yours! Im so sorry Vanessa I read sbout Baby and I too cried for the love and seeing a glimpse of a lovely family of yours thru your Blog. My Sons pug is 7 now and so I think of him getting old..their lives so short like a vapor! But I truly believe that One fine day we shall see and live with all the animals we ever loved! I think He will have Baby waiting at those Pearly Gates just a waiting and wagging her beautiful tail. I really believe that! She just went on *ahead is all! Lots of huggs from Janet at Singingwoods oxo
My heart feels for you…
There are no words, only love. Boy, do I feel lucky just having known her thru this blog. I have shared the photos and stories with my Unsinkable Molly Brown and Bess … love to Matty. And still, Love to Baby.
Love to you all always.
Candace, Still in Athens.
I am so so sorry to hear about your dear Baby. No words can ease your pain but just know that one day you will meet again in Heaven. Your Baby will be waiting for you at the gates of Heaven and you two will be together forever and ever. I still weep over my dear Spike who I lost many years ago. He was my baby and my best friend. He would snuggle up to me every night and boy did we have a bond. The only thing that gives me comfort is that we will be together again in Heaven. I will pray for you and your family during this tough time. May God be with you and bless you. Know that Baby is not suffering any more and is running around with God and Jesus.
I send much love to you both and am thinking of you. I hope all these positive thoughts reach you soon and help you feel better.
I am deeply sorry. there is nothing like the loss of a pet. My heart still breaks for my sweet dog but I smile when I imagine she is my angel and always will be by my side the moment I think of her.
Your angel is with you.
Loving you and sending you all big huge hugs!
SueAnn
This is such terribly sad news vanessa, I’m so sorry 🙁 you could always gain a sense of her lovely personality through your posts and pictures, and to me she always seemed kind, wise, and a dog who loved to lay in the sun! 🙂 maybe that is where she is now, layed in a lovely patch of sun, watching over you and mr lovee, and watching matty get up to mischeif 🙂
Also, having had one of our beloved babes leave us a few years ago, the beautiful doggy that is left behind, you will see his personaltiy change into a strong mature and seemingly wiser doggy. He might take on elements of Baby’s personality is as well,which will be a lovely way of you to remember her 🙂
I am again, so sorry for your loss, and hope your heart heals thouroughly and swiftly
olivia
x
I’m sorry for your loss. The memories sound sweet. I know of the unconditional love that you speak of – my furry friend is of the feline variety – and I can only imagine the distress and sorry that Baby’s passing brings. Many blessings…
Dear Vanessa, sending you lots of love and a big hug as you heal your heart! This brought back all the memories of our first two beloved dogs leaving us. I so feel for you all!! Love, Silke
What a lovely tribute! It is so sad to lose a friend.
Dear Vanessa and Family what a beautiful tribute to your Baby and I am so terribly sorry for your sad loss. Your story sounds just like you were all meant to be together and always will be in each others hearts. I will light a little candle for your baby tonight. Much love xxx
I cry with you. I send you hugs and pray for healing.
Sue
V,
I am so sorry for your loss. So deep and wide is your sorrow. I wish that I could make you feel better…even for a little while. Know that you have a friend on the other end of this land who wishes peace for your aching heart.
Vicki
Beloved pets are with us forever. Someday, you will join her in heaven. Dogs really do go to heaven, and wait for us there. I have three such sweet dogs, waiting for me there. Running, playing and jumping in the perfect grass.
Behind this worlds sorrow is joy. Take joy!
This made , and is making me, cry so much. I am so sorry for the pain you are going through at losing Baby – and so happy that you all had ten wonderful years together. I, too, have a beloved fur companion, who has shared my life for thirteen years. He is failing visibly and I have been bracing myself for a loss which is going to be painful beyond measure. I found a quote from Houseman’s poem to a beloved dog. It ends with the words:
I am not afraid.
I am not lonely.
I am still yours.
I am going to hold onto those words so hard when my dear boy passes.
Baby is still yours. How you will miss her! But you loved her well.
So sorry to hear this. I understand that feeling all too well. I’m just glad that she was able to share the tea party with you, one last party.
I found you through Du Buh Du Designs and just had a good cry when I read your post about Baby and saw the lovely photographs. Please know that someone in Charleston, SC said a little prayer for one of the newest angels in the heaven – and also for you! May your heart continue to heal. Warmly, Maria
I am bereft for you, Vanessa. Baby was a beautiful girl. Her heart claimed you as hers from the start, and you gave her boundless love in return. How lucky you all were to have shared time together!
I lost my own Angel not long ago, but she always knew I would love her forever. I believe there is a huge doggy celebration in heaven each time someone new joins the crowd. Baby will have all sorts of friends to romp with, including my Angel.
Much love to you, Mr. L. and Matty. Hold each other tightly, kiss away the tears, and remember that Baby will never really die as long as she lives on in your hearts…
Lynette
So Sorry…Palmer
Sweet Vanessa – I just returned home after a weekend away and saw this entry. I’m so sorry for your loss. Baby was a lovely pet companion. My condolences go out to you & Mister Lovee. {{HUGS}}
Dear, dear Vanessa,
My heart goes out to you and Mr. Lovee and Matty as you all adjust to Baby stepping, paw by paw, across to the other side (waiting for you, for sure). I know you’ll see Baby again, and I always recommend this book called ‘The Soul of your Pet’ by Scott Smith. It kinda help get me through when I lost my beloved boy, Oreo, the sweetest tuxedo cat and my darlingest one for many, many years. We just have to console ourselves that their lifespans are shorter, and they KNOW how much we love/d them, and that we’ll see them again!! I’m sure you know that time will be your only solace…some of it just has to pass. Oh dear girl, take care…this next bit of time is not for wimps! I’m sure your Matty has plenty of love to share to get you through. Big hugs to you and your family, Robin
Oh, God. I am so so sorry. I really know how devastating it is to lose a furry child. Your tribute to Baby is beautiful and she loved you and you loved her and she knew it. Yes, you were fortunate to have her but she was also fortunate to have you. I am mouring your loss with you this morning.
Love.
Vanessa, Mister Lovee and Matty,
I am deeply sorry for your loss. Baby was clearly a special soul and a wonderful friend to you. All i can do is send you postive thoughts and good energy. Take lots of time to grieve and heal.
This poem/story is always on my fridge as a reminder about how wonderful and special dogs are, i hope it brings you a bit of peace.
lots of love and hugs Kristy
Being a veterinarian, I had been called to examine a ten-year-old Irish Wolfhound named Belker. The dog’s owners, Ron, his wife Lisa, and their little boy, Shane, were all very much attached to Belker and they were hoping for a miracle.
I examined Bilker and found he was dying of cancer. I told the family there were no miracles left for Belker, and offered to perform the euthanasia procedure for the old dog in their home. As we made arrangements, Ron and Lisa told me they thought it would be good the four-year-old Shane to observe the procedure. They felt as though Shane might learn something from the experience.
The next day, I felt the familiar catch in my throat as Belker’s family surrounded him. Shane seemed so calm, petting the old dog for the last time, that I wondered if he understood what was going on. Within a few minutes, Belker slipped peacefully away. The little boy seemed to accept Belker’s transition without any difficulty or confusion.
We sat together for a while after Belker’s death, wondering aloud about the sad fact that animal lives are shorter than human lives. Shane, who had been listening quietly, piped up, “I know why.” Startled, we all turned to him. What came out of his mouth next stunned me. I’d never heard a more comforting explanation. He said, “People are born so that they can learn how to live a good life like loving everybody all the time and being nice, right?” The four-year-old continued, “Well, dogs already know how to do that, so they don’t have to stay as long.”
Live simply. Love generously. Care deeply. Speak kindly.
Dearest Vanessa and Family,
I’m so sorry for your loss. My heart just broke for you as I read the post. I don’t have any answers for making the pain go away, but I don’t know, maybe this sounds strange and trivial and all, but I lost my sister(she was 20) in a car wreck 13 years ago, and my brother(27) he was a Navy seal and killed in training for a mission 10 years ago. I was so angry for so very long, and it changed the person I used to be for so long. Then one day I was just thinking to myself and noticed that I just missed seeing their faces, and hearing them laugh. I missed every little way they moved and lived life, but I thought to myself that it never had really seemed like they were gone. I could not explain it at the time, but it was like I could smell them in the air, and feel and hear the sounds of their voices whisper in my ears. If I listened really hard.
I then thought to myself that maybe they were not gone, maybe they were just part of something else, I dont know maybe they had become part of me, and maybe they were in everything I saw, but because I just have human eyes..I was not able to see. Maybe I had to look harder, because that is what I missed. Their faces, their voices, the way it felt to hug them. I don’t know maybe it is silly, but I know they are here, and I know if I feel them, and I hear them, then I could see them again too. It just takes those days when the rest of the world is not getting in the way and clouding my vision. Maybe that’s where they are. I don’t know. I don’t know if that helps, but I just wanted to let you know. Maybe when your heart heals some, and maybe one day you may hear Baby again, or smell her, or feel her close to you , and maybe some of the pain will subside for a brief moment or longer, and maybe you will find her out there and know that she is not gone, she has just changed into that something else that she was ready to become. And if you are able to look close enough, then you will see her. I’m sorry, I know this is a long rambling comment, but I was just thinking that maybe it might help some. I am truly sorry for your heartbreak, and I am thinking of you and yours.
Wendy from Wonderland
oh honey…I am so sorry, I understand this loss, I truly do.
You have many many kind words here to comfort you, I will just quietly add my love and hugs.
x..x
steph
Oh Vanessa… So terribly sad for your loss. I hope you find peace in happy memories that you shared with Baby. She lived the best possible life a dog could ever dream of. Only hers was not a dream…
To Vanessa and your wonderful family,
I’m so sorry to hear about Baby. I’m sending you my sympathies, prayers and comfort during this very sad time in your life.
Take care!
Christy
Dear Vanessa:
I know, all too well, the grief you feel at Baby’s loss. Our dogs never live long enough. It really is their only fault. Trust that some day, you and Baby will be reunited and will share joy everlasting.
Hugs and love,
Donna
I’m so very sorry Vanessa and Mister Lovee my heart goes out to you both
I have been down this painful road and I am so so very sorry for your loss. I know how much our furry ones become a part of us and our lives. (((Hugs))) and love to you.
Forgive me for this late comment. I have only just read of your loss. My heart goes out to you three that are left, for your deep loss. So thankful that you had such a one as ‘Baby’.
She will forever live in your cherished memories.
~Vicki
I’m so sorry for your loss.
I’m so sorry. Baby was beautiful – I am glad she had such a happy, loved life and so sad about your loss.
Sending our prayers to you and your family during your time of sadness. Rejoice in the knowledge that she is no longer in pain and is running around like a puppy in heaven waiting for you guys to see her again!