I have so much to say, that I don't know what to say. Has that ever happened to you? I have been painting, drawing, crying, laughing, loving, hugging, sculpting, moving furniture, growing seeds and talking to the heavens…
I have been painting words that comfort my heart…
Creating a little sign, with thoughts and ideas that fill my soul…
Full of stars and glitter and delightment.
I have also been drawing my Original Art Card girls again…
I used to make these for all of my shows, as well as for a beautiful local shoppe (I also used to draw them onto plates I made).
But, other things popped into my life, and I stopped drawing these gals for a little while…
But, now they are back visiting me. I missed them so much. Oh and, I have actually put 14 of these originals art card drawings in my shop, a few seconds ago…
As for life…
I have moved outside. Created a little studio right outside the Gypsy Wagon. Why have I done this? Well you see, there is a reason. Although, I am having a really hard time typing what I have to say…
Throughout the last few years, that I left my job to do art full time (and started this blog journey), people have asked why I talk about my life so much here. Why not just share art and nothing more?
The answer. I have no idea. All I know is that, I go with my heart's flow. I do and say whatever comes naturally to me. I left a super stressful job (where even the phone ringing put my stomach into anxiety knots) and followed my path to this place. A world that lets us all travel anywhere, and meet people everywhere.
A virtual place that makes it incredibly easy to share art and life. My everyday life, and my journey making art, are intertwined. So, I suppose that is why I share such personal things with you.
Leaving my job 3 years ago has allowed me to bond with a quiet life, a life where I am totally enchanted while watching seeds grow. Where all the little things in life, have become big things in my life…
But most of all, I have bonded with my furry babies. I have found a love in myself, for them, that I had no idea existed.
Such a profound love. I just, absolutely, had no idea…
And so – Yesterday was a beautiful sunny day, and it was also one of the saddest for me.
We found out something that we were dreading.
That Baby is very ill………..
Sigh… She has a large growth in her head. It can not be removed. It is in the front of her head, between her left eye and her nose, and it is causing many problems, as well as causing her face to slowly shift.
I have a pain so deep in my heart……
Her doctor gave her some medication to make her more comfortable, but as you can imagine…
We don't know how much longer she will be with us. All we can do now is watch her, and love her, and hug her, and feel blessed to have her in our lives, for however much longer she will be a part of our family.
We adore her beyond words, truly.
Her little brother is so sweet to us. He helps to ease the pain with his outpouring of love and his silly antics. You can't help but cry and smile, at the same time. Sadness and joy…
And soooo, that is why I have moved outside. The pups play outside all day, and I want to be with them. I felt like I was suffocating in the house. I want to be with Baby as much as possible.
So, outside I went. And, here we are…
The fact is, my pups are not "just dogs" or pets to me. They are my beloveds. Working from home and being with them all day has created an extra closeness, that I could not have imagined.
I know it is hard to understand, if you are not a pet person. I used to be one of those people, who didn't understand fur baby love. And now – I have been touched by a furry gal, beyond words…
So, I am working outside, and all around me the garden is in full bloom. I marvel at a volunteer tree that we did not plant. When I look at it, it brings me such peace. There is a depth, a vast tale about this curious life, living in that little tree…
And so, in the garden we continue to paint, and make memories.
While, having faith in life's little unraveling path – and the journey it holds.
And while on this journey, trying to live each day to the fullest, and not take anything for granted…
Hug those you love. Squeeze them tight. Make a memory of how they smell. How their eyes sparkle…
Tell them you love them, again and again, no matter how annoying they might think you are…
🖤 ,V
Vanessa:
I just happened by this new blog post…it’s late. After 11:00 p.m. Normally, I don’t check blogs at this hour. Something told me to come here tonight. Something told me to come here right now.
And now I see why. Baby….I am so sorry. There are no words that will ease your pain. But, I can say I know how you feel. My Homer Girl, just turned 14 this month and, well, she’s giving out. I watch her getting older and sleepier. She’s the first fur baby I ever loved.
How calming that you have moved your studio outside during this time. Each minute counts, each shared glance and lick on the hand counts.
Be with Baby and be with Matty and just love them. I don’t know you “in real life”, but I know you enough to know that you are loving and giving and caring. Your magic world is Baby’s magic world as well. You’ve given her a beautiful life and I know you will continue to do so as long as you can.
Take care of yourself (and Mr. Lovee) as well:
All my love:
Kim
Gerushia’s New World
Oh sweet one….I read your posts all of the time and don’t comment very much but please know that this touched my heart in the deepest of places. I have seen all of your adoring pics of your sweet babes and I am a confessed furry animal lover (with 2 pups and 6 cats sshhh!… I never usually tell). My heart breaks while reading this. I totally get it. Just know that these sweet babes are so very strong and they can surprise us with their tenacity. And, also know, what furry baby wouldn’t want an ever loving, unconditional mama like yourself? What a blessing you and your sweet family are to them. Baby was placed with you for a distinct reason. I will pray for you guys and I do still believe that the faith of a mustard seed could move a mountain. xxxxx
Oh Vanessa,
As I write this to you my eyes are swelled with tears. I have come to know Baby through your lovely blog posts. I have felt the pain before of what you are experiencing in the past. Also recently with one of my dearest friends’ pet. His name was Tucker and he was an amazing and loving companion. I now have two very special kitties of which one of them, we almost lost a few years back. She is well now and doing great but she is getting older. I know how close one can become to their animals…they truly become one of the family…my heart goes out to you and the Mister. I sincerely wish for you to enjoy the time you have with her…love her as you do. She knows how much she is loved..I pray that a miracle will heal her. You and the furry gal are in my prayers!
xoxo,
Dena
Vanessa–my heart goes out to you and your little Baby. You are in my thoughts and prayers, God bless.
Oh Vanessa, I am so sorry to hear the news about your Baby. I can feel the pain through your words. I don’t really have anything comforting to say, I am afraid, although I do believe, as far as I can think to know you through your blog, that everyone around you, including Baby, must feel so loved and cherished. Big hug to all of you.
Vanessa, I have never commented here but have followed you quietely because you have been such an inspiration to me. When I visit here I always smile because I share your same whimsical spirit (except you of course are incredibly talented!)This post broke my heart. Just yesterday I posted about losing my dear sweet baby kitty last December. I know what it’s like to have no option but to love your furry child for as long as you can. To want to spend every minute with them and rearrange your life to make that possible. There are really no words. My own post made me so sad I had to remove it and tuck it away for now. I hope you’ll find comfort in each day you have with her and treasure each moment. I never gave up hoping for a miracle.
This made me tear up as well. I don’t comment often but just had to let you know that I appreciate what you share with us. How lucky you and Baby are to be able to spend more time together. Peace and love to you all.
It’s such a shame they don’t last for ever, but think of them all as angels of unconditional love wearing furry suits, who can only spend a short time with us.
pain, love, questions, time, tears, sadness, memories…i have no words, my thoughts are jumbled…i love visiting your world, dont stop and dont change a thing…you are so lucky to have had each other, no matter what happens hold onto the memories and be at peace knowing that you provided the best life for one that is at the mercy of its owner.
xxpeace
cheer up V….u did makes my life change..i love everything u did…the baby will be fine…he’s just like anything on this universe …either trees or us,we all just the same…but as what u did..makes used of everyday as much as we can..i don’t think about tomorrow for 3 month, i just live for today..when the day end..everything’s end..when the new day come everything start…cheer up ^___^….xoxo T.
Good morning. What a sad and moving post. I’m so glad you are able to work outside to be with the babies. Keep on blogging just as you do. You have no idea how many people share your joy and your sorrow too. Blessings and healing thoughts are being sent your way.
The difference between friends and pets is that friends we allow into our company, pets we allow into our solitude. ~Robert Brault,
Oh V i am heartbroken for you. I lost my own furry baby suddenly 2 years ago and i am still waiting for my heart to mend. But you have Matty to look after you. And he will.
Pets truly do become such loving beings in our lives. Toni was with me from the time I was 2 until I was 17. She was my first fur baby love and although it’s been more than 25 years since she’s been gone, I still think about her, miss her, and have her photo in my bedroom. She held a place in my heart that no one can replace. So hard when you know there is nothing you can do for them but give them all your love and care until the end. Wishing you all the best. Enjoy the outdoors and your beautiful life as it is at this moment. Many blessings, Tammy
Oh dearest one…my heart breaks for you and Mister! I know this is a sad, sad time for all of you. It is so right to be out with Baby…yes!! I send comforting hugs your way. I pray for pain-free times for Baby. Your outdoor studio brings healing to your lives…I know it!
Hugging you
SueAnn
You wrote a beautiful post about love.
My heart goes out to Baby & you…never an easy time when someone in our family is sick and ailing. I wish I knew what to say but everyone else above me has said it so eloquently. Instead know that I’m thinking of you and sending you a big virtual hug – {{HUG}}.
i’m so sorry my dear joyful vanessa! BUT, maybe there is sth that might cheer you up!!!
in my fairyland there is a new born tiny little hedgehog- elf!!!
please visit it(it is on my blog) and welcome it ,to its new life! i’m sure it will fall in love with you!!!
I’m so sorry about Baby, but I think it’s wonderful that you are able to work outside with the pups. Your blog is beautiful and it is such a pleasure seeing a glimpse of your world through it. Enjoy each day!
vanessa, may i hug you? whisper to you that baby will wait for you, run to you when the time comes?
i love that you have moved outside. that says so much about you. i know and share with you the grief you feel. i wish i could offer words that could help in some way.
baby will tell you what is needed and when. i am sure of that.
love to you, ms. v.
your neighbor,
ms. kj
Words can not express how sad I feel for your family. Baby will be in our thoughts. Your sadness will not get any better but it will change. I learned from experience. Please think of only the good.
What a tender heart you are…a reason to love you. I’m sending you hugs and wishing you the best. Your art will reflect your life and lead you into new areas. Live it to the fullest and you’ll have no regrets. Love, Lavender Dreamer…Diane 🖤🖤🖤
Vanessa, my heart goes out to you. I’ve lost two beloveds in the last 18 months – both had been with us for more than 15 years, so the chasm was deep and wide when they left. It’s hard and no one can say anything that will make it easier but know that there are people out there giving you a virtual hug!
Oh Vanessa my sweet friend… I wish I really could wave my magic wand and make everything all better… I love all animals and Nature with all of my heart and even though I have never met your sweet Baby in person, I know her and love her… you are doing exactly what she needs most right now, being with her all of the time and giving her your unconditional love, just like she gives you hers… we have no pets since our little ones all left for Animal Heaven, as my heart would break each time one of my babies would leave us… when they were sick, I was sick… I really do understand everything you are posting… please know how much I am thinking of all of you and praying your Baby will stay free of any pain and be close by your side for a long time to come… so much love to you and Baby… and to Mr. Lovee and Matty too… xoxo Julie Marie
Vanessa, I have been one of your “silent” followers, loving your Bohemian decorating flair, your beautiful way with words, your creativity, your love of life. Today as I read your post, tears streamed silently down my face, and I just had to write you. I feel like I know Baby, if only a bit, through your blog, and I am sad. I lost a fur baby dog a year and a half ago. We had her so many years. She was elderly, but gone so very, very too soon. I know you have been the best fur mama ever and continue to be. Moving your studio outside to be near your sweet Baby . . . . You are a special gal. Silent tears fall anew as I write this. You and Baby will be in my prayers, dear one. Thank you for sharing your life with us.
I’m so sorry to hear this news about Baby.
I understand the feeling…they are always part of the family, not just dogs.
My heart aches for you and your family.
I adore the way you embrace life.
I adore your outside studio.
I adore all your blog posts.
Thank you for sharing with us all.
Baby will be in my thoughts.
Best Wishes.
I understand you pain all too well, just know that when baby goes to that great spirit in the sky she will take years of love a happy memories with her and leave you with the same.
These times help us remember just how precious every second is.
Oh Vanessa, as a fellow furbaby mom my heart goes out to you. I had to go through the same years ago with my first furbaby who died of a painful urinary disease.
You are in my prayers hon. May you and yours coming days be full of music, art and love!
My heart goes out to you Vanessa. I have lost 2 babies of my own from old age and I am watching my little 14 year old BABY lose his hearing and sight, it is so painful to know he may not be with me soon. But try to focus on the DANCE you’ve enjoyed together. How wonderful to be loved unconditionally by such sweet babies! My prayers are with all of you.
Miss V, my heart breaks for you! I was raised a pet person and always will be (even if my hubs really is not.) It’s hard to lose a friend that is so very faithful. Give Baby a big luv from the Dandelion Bones clan. Enjoy your time outside…your little space there looks so very lovely.
So sorry to hear about your sad news, I too just lost a fluffy baby on Easter, she took her favorite toy and went to take a nap and never woke up, I buried her under the big tree in the yard so she can see the birds. My only little one left has a heart murmur, so Sailor may not be with me very long, animals touch our lives so much, I feel your sadness, this has been a tough week
your sad fairy friend
Karey
v~
Oh my dearest friend!! My heart just broke in two 🙁 I wish I was close by to give you and Baby hugs. Please know that even though I’m far away I’m keeping you in my thoughts.
drip, drop, drip
(those are my tears falling off my nose)
you have been the best for baby. you gave baby a loving home and open arms and unconditional love. you have been touched by baby and this will be very hard. but you will get through it and you will continue to love baby all through your life.
my beloved was a schnauzer named madison. we never knew he was sick until the day he had seizures. that was the end. i should have known something was up that day. all he wanted to do was have me pet him. so i did. and i am glad I did. he was my first ‘baby’ until the flesh and blood ones came along.
i am thinking of you and mister and will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
do all that you need to do.
enjoy the day
erin xox
I am so sorry 🙁 I know how hard it is to lose a fur baby. I’ll send happy thoughts your way 🙂
My Heart goes out to you dear girl, I am inspired by all that you do.
I understand fur baby love, feather love and just love.
I think heartache is gift of love…
It is a gift to the one you love that whispers the love you have for them.
I think it would be a sadder thing to have no pain because you gave no love.
Paint and create and through this you will make a lasting memory of Baby.
The two will go hand and hand …enjoy and treasure these days.
Louise
Oh, Vanessa,
My heart aches for you. Love on Baby .. hold her close … she will always be with you. Wishing all of you well.
Oh Vanessa, all dogs DO go to heaven where they chase bunnies and butterflies all day long and lay by crystal streams waiting for the day we join them. A God as Big and loving as ours would never gift us with a relationship that could not be carried out in heaven…for it would be no heaven without all of our beloveds there. Yet, that knowledge does not stop the heart from breaking…I swear I catch a glimpse of my Bear, for a split second, out of the corner of my eye, and then I remember she is no longer in pain, and she runs, Runs, RUNS on the other side of the rainbow. I am so sorry, Vanessa. Sending all of my love to you on the wings of a garden fairie.
**blows kisses** Deb
Vanessa, I want you to know how sorry I am about this. Lori and I have spoken of your art but believe it or not I always look into your photos to catch one of your pets. We have two noble canines and a feline grand duchess who by rank and temperament lets the “interlopers” know who is boss when they come to intrude into her realm. She still once in a while huffs hard enough at them that they retreat without much ado.
I wish I could find some comforting words to offer, some succor to help you go through this, but even at my age I have never found anything to really offer that to an animal lover could have some meaning or offer some relief. So I will light a candle for Baby, that her time however short or long it may be, be not a painful one, as I am sure she is already aware of the love she is surrounded by at home, and that when the time comes for her to go somewhere else where we are not yet welcome to come, she may come to visit in your dreams, to remind you that she will still be with you, sleeping at your feet, walking by your side, and thanking you for all the love you gave her while she was here. I am so sorry, Vanessa.
IT hurts too much to even put into words… I know that magical fur baby love too, completely profound and it NEVER stops growing, unlike human relationships that ebb and flow, for me, the love I feel for my baby girl Doja is a constant! My heart bleeds for you sweetness…
I’m so sorry to hear about Baby, and yes, I am one of those people that totally understand what a pet means to your life. They are as important as children (even though some can never imagine it), and I have felt the sadness and pain you are going through. Sending hugs and knowing that whenever and whatever decisions you make are made in love for Baby. If only they could live forever . . . . . .
Dearest Vanessa,
I’m so sorry to hear about your beloved Baby. Puppies (no matter how old they are) have a way of curling up in our hearts and making it their home. Puppy love is the truest kind of love and I believe that the Lord gave them to us to teach us about His love toward us.They love with the heart and see only the good in us. I wish I could give you a big huge hug right now, because I know there are no words that can alleviate the pain you must be feeling.
Much love and prayers,
Cori
Your words are so beautiful and heartfelt. I love that your outside studio sparkles like your spirit does and that you have chosen to be courageous and step outside where you can be close to your baby and nature. I hope my wishes of peace find their way to your baby and to you.
vanessa,
i am crying for you and your fur baby. i have an older dog too and i know one day i am going to travel the path you are on. enjoy baby keep her close and give her lots of love. i know we dont know each other but if i can do anything for you please let me know. huge hugs for you, your mister and the fur babys. take care. oxoxox kristy
people have asked why I talk about my life so much here. Why not just share art and nothing more?
boy, they don’t get it at all, do they? LOL
Love the al fresco atelier you’ve created for yourself and your fur babies! In the summer, I sometimes work out side with Dusty – but I can’t create an outside studio in New England – much too moist! LOL
Enjoy your new space.
I can totally understand. Postively. On all counts. I say follow your heARt ..that is my mantra..whether it is moving outdoors to be with your loving doggies or blogging about your life. Be Free to be who you are! I am so very sad to hear about Baby dog. I know this sounds trite, but she gets to live her best life with the best friend she could ever have..You. Peace and LoVe from Pam and Spot
Dearest Vanessa, my heart goes out to you as I know exactly how you feel. Tears sprung to my eyes when I read this. My doggies are my life and my loves. We have no children – they are more than pets to us. Willow and Neo ARE our family-our children. I hug and kiss them everyday, and I chat with them – as I know they understand. We lost our beloved kitty a few months ago, and it was devastating. It tears out a piece of your soul. My little boy developed a limp this past weekend and I got so scared because he is so very young!!! I would do anything for my sweet hearts. Being surrounded by the glory and peace of such a beautiful garden will make your heart sing and bring much joy to Baby and your sweet Mattie. My thoughts are with you and your sweet family. Enjoy each minute with sweet baby. 🙂 Give her a special hug and kiss from me. xoxo Theresa
Dearest Vanessa,
I am so sad to hear that Baby is not well. My heart goes out to you.
I do love your ‘original’ sweet girl pretties that you ‘had’ in your Etsy…seems they popped in there and popped out in the blink of an eye! It is so special that you can paint plein air on your own sweet acreage. The weather must be very nice by now in Arizona. It was 77 degrees here yesterday in California and it was so nice and comfy.
Do you have a chocolate cake recipe by any chance, from scratch, of course. I don’t do box cake mixes, they taste to ‘commercial’ Maybe you have one on a previous post. I am looking for a very, very moist, chocolatey, cake with a decadent rich, chocolate frosting, maybe an inside frosting and a different outside frosting.
I am a chocoholic. I keep a stash of Hershey’s bars with almonds…my favorite.
There is nothing like chocolate to make a girl feel better…
Love to you, and hugs,
Miss Teresa
Oh, Vanessa, I am so very sorry. I do know the pain…I had my Maggie girl 16 years and she was my buddy, my companion, my funny little girl. After I retired and was with her all the time we talked, walked, played, etc. She was never ill until the end and for that I will be forever grateful. It doesn’t matter how long we have them, it’s never long enough. My heart goes out to you!
Thank you for sharing this personal journey with us along with the incredibly beautiful photos. Your photography is always amazing! I’m off to the shop ~ love the girls.
Sending comforting peace your way and the strength to walk this path.
xoxo
Pat
I forgot to say that I totally understand that your little furry boy cannot replace Baby but it does make it a bit easier. You will have him to focus on and love ’cause the animals grieve too.
xoxo
Pat
My sympathy, and my heart, go out to you all in this terrible, tragic time.
Vanessa –
So sorry to hear the heartbreaking news. I know what it’s like to lose a furry loved one – It was a sadness so deep and complete, it seemed like I could feel it on a cellular level. The pain never fully goes away, but it does ease. Fortunately all the awfulness didn’t prevent me from loving deeply again. My thoughts are with you and your lovely family. Take care –
OH no…I’m SO so sorry to hear that your own dear Baby is ill and how serious it is….I’m sending you all warm thoughts and wishes…though I know they will not make it any easier for you. I know how having little fur-babies is…they are our own dear little babies…like children, and when they hurt, we hurt with them…it aches the soul to see them in pain and if only we could do something. Your so lovely to move your studio outside to be with them more….So very lovely. I know they must appreciate it so much, and enjoy the time with their Mum!!
Warm thoughts and all our sympathy to You!!
You can’t imagine how many things I’ve typed here and deleted……My heart breaks for you my sweet friend…and I can’t find the right words to say at this moment. I am holding you all in my heart. Just remember that you have given Baby an extraordinary life filled with love and magic and play….you enhanced her life as she has yours. I am so sorry.
XOXOXO
L.
p.s. NEVER for a moment let anyone question what you say, what you show, what you do or how you present ANYTHING on YOUR blog!!
I’m so sorry for what you are going through with your furry family member.
My thoughts and prayers are with you.
I am very sad for you right now Vanessa, I am so sorry to hear about Baby. Sending big hugs your way and big kisses to her! My very favorite postcard of her with her big eyelashes and princess crown are on my inspiration wall and I look at her every day. I love your outdoor studio, so nice that you can be out working with her, I know she loves that.
Jamie 🙂
I love all the bright, bold, beautiful colors you use in your art, keep up the good work!
I am so so very sorry to hear about Baby, Vanessa. My eyes have filled with tears reading this, as I know exactly how you feel. She is not just a pet, she is family. Give her a big hug for me, and my thoughts will be with all of you. ~Lauren
I still have dreams of my “Timmy”, he left us 10 yrs ago. They stay in your heart forever.I now have 3 “kids” if one leaves, I still have someone here. So sorry to hear Baby is sick, glad she has a lovey Mom like you to love her.
My heart is breaking for you. Our Dakota is 13 which is old for a Husky. We see her start to slow down and are rejoicing in every day that we still have her with us. We will be praying for you and your loved one.
Lovely Vanessa
I am truly deeply sadly feeling for you and your Baby. When my beloved cats passed on I thought my wounded heart would weep tears forever. Time does distance you from the pain but the scars remain. Reading your words tonight I have to say agitated my scars reminding me what the sorrow is like and I found myself crying for you and the hell you must be suffering right now. No wonder you can’t breathe inside and need to be outside. The angst of a sick beloved is so stifling. Don’t you find you live in a kind of surreal state of mind where images and thoughts of love for your beloved swirl continuously around like the music of a stuck background record and you can’t really focus on anything else but you have to do manic stuff to occupy yourself because the vacuum you’re in is in suspended animation and time is stretched out like bubblegum? You plead with angels to intercede and all the while you know there is a master plan that is greater than you so the best you can do is try and etch in your mind memories, memories as real as if you were combing your fingers right through her plump fur everyday for the rest of your life. And you treasure her and her life with you like no other worldly possession could ever be treasured…
Thank you so much for sharing your life experience with us… that in itself is an art… you touch the hearts of so many and inspire. You are so brave and generous in what you do… Thank you again…
Thinking of you and Baby and Mr Lovee and Matisse…
Much love
xxx
I am so sorry to hear this heartbreaking news. The loss of a furry Baby is a devastating one. Its truly an honor to be so lucky as to have these four legged creatures in our lives for the short time that we do. I hope your heart finds some comfort along this difficult journey you are taking with your Baby. Your Baby is so lucky to have such a devoted Mama. All the best to you and yours. xxx
This post really touched me. I am a pet person, a dog person especially and I know how hard it is to lose one, they are family and the love that one feels is so so big…
I send you a really big comfort hug and another one to your furry love.
What an enchanting place you created for yourself to work outside. Here it is still cold and rainy and I dream of being outside… Meanwhile I might travel on the hummingbird’s wings and visit you!
Maia
I, too, am not a traditional blog commentator…but from one fairy tale forest princess sister to another (and believe it or not, this realm of “sisterhood” existed between me and another before we discovered your fabuloso blog of whimsy – and knew that you were our secret third wheel) – a piece of my heart goes out to you and your bundle of fur joy. The glimpses into your soul that you are carried by your blog posts – they feed my heart and soul more than you know.
L
My thoughts and love are with you and your family. I know the worry, the pain and the desperation you feel. Take every day and hold on with all your might. And give Baby an extra special squeeze from all of us.
so very heartbroken for you about Baby. animals do not live long enough! If only they had human lifespans!!!!
oh darling you <3
I'm so sorry.
hugs
Please know that you are not alone – my, and many others, hearts are with you. I went through something very similar with my dear, beloved Kayleigh a few years ago. I truly believe with all my heart that they will be with us again. Such deep a connection of love can never be broken. Thank you for your honesty and for continuing to share your art, your magic and your special self. {{hugs}}
So many lovely posts that express well what we feel for what you are going through and speak to the great love we feel for and receive from our furry family members.
Just 3 months ago, I had to put my Emma down. My 23 year old cat. We adopted her when she was just over a year, and we found her cowering in the back of a cage at the local animal shelter. She had been terribly mistreated, and I so wanted her to come home with me so she could be safe.
It’s still so sad to come home and not have her here (we had to put our other rescued cat to sleep a couple of years ago when she was 18 – oh we miss our marmalade-colored Miss R., too). I still sometimes feel a twinge of sadness walking by the pet food aisle.
What does help is knowing we loved them and they us. Friends always tell us how lucky our pets were that we adopted them, but I feel we were the lucky ones. And I feel certain, it is the same for you. Take peace in the mutual love you share and that you have made her life all the better for being in it.
Oh Vanessa…this post brought tears to my eyes. (And I don’t cry easily)
I am so sorry. I believe too that pets are not just pets, they are loved ones. There are things in life so difficult that it seems we will never be able to overcome them.
I understand…tomorrow is the one year anniversary of my kitty’s passing away. It seems like it never gets easier, but sometimes the heartache doesn’t hurt as much.
I send you my sympathy, to you and your family.
-Krista
Sweet Vanessa… I can so identify with your pain… I can feel your tears …. I know your laughter …. I know what you are going through….
My Pepper… sweet Pepper…. when living in FL in 2006 I found out she had a tumor on her side… it was pushing everything to the other side…. within two weeks I was packed and on my way back here to be with my family during what was one of the most difficult times of my life…
One month to the day we left she passed away…. I too spent every waking minute that I could with her…. it was heartbreaking …. I felt she had a hand in getting me back to where I needed to be…. I love her all the more for it…. There is not a day that does not go by … even though I have my little PJ by my side… with her silly ways…. that I dont think about her and all the joy she gave me during her short life…. I miss her …. but her days with me were filled with love and she knew that ….
Baby knows that with you…she has been blessed to have such loving parents like you and Mr Lovee to romp with and play with …. and you have been blessed with her…
Cherish what time you have… It will be bittersweet… but it will be the most loved filled days you have ever known…
LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS OF HUGS
JO
Be strong Vanessa! Just enjoy every minute you have with Baby and embrace it. Take a moment to close your eyes and save the good memories in your mind!
Don’t hesitate if you need someone to rely on. We will always be here for you!
I hope you have a nice weekend, and enjoy it the most with your beloved ones!
xo- Nicole
My pups are also my beloveds. I’m so sorry about your Baby. I had one that ran away at age 6 (would now be 10), and I wonder all the time how her health held up. Be well. You will grieve, but it really is different, shorter, than with people. Glad your studio has followed you outside.
Hugs to you my dear. Spend as much time as you can with that fur baby… I began working from home about four years ago and my fur babies and I have such a routine…that when we lost our Rottie in early January there was a hole in my day. I am so glad that we have two others to help with the loss. Take care and so glad the weather is nice so that you can be outside.
Dear V. I too have those sweet furry babies and understand your pain. If your girl could read your blog, oh the happiness she would have. I love that you share your life on here. I enjoy visiting your magical place and getting away from the everyday grind. Hope you find peace.
I’m so sorry, Miss V – I pray that all will be as well as possible through this time.
“It is only with the heart that one sees clearly” – and the heart knows furry four-footed people are family, whether or not others can see with their own hearts to understand. The ones whose opinion really matters – your fur family – I’m sure truly appreciate that you’re spending extra time with them. I hope you will enjoy many happy hours there together at your charming little plein air atelier. Sending much love to you and your little family~xOx
I’m such a lover of furry critters too – my heart is all tangled up in shaggy hair and muddy paws. Wishing you many more days of love and licks and cuddles!
And, also, I am a big fan of your artwork – it’s whimsically wonderful and always puts a smile on my face! Thanks! 🙂
Lo siento mucho, Vanessa. I know your puppies are very precious to you and Mr. Lovee. xox Toni
ooooh, boy. I knew something would be coming for Baby. I have been through this many times, which doesn’t make it easier at all. Your are so right to spend every minute loving her; to gather and keep these memories in your heart.
oh, vanessa, i am so so sorry to hear about baby. my heart pours out to you. i can’t even imagine what i did before my little kitties came in to my life, so i know how it is when you think you’re just getting a pet, but you’re not. you are getting love unconditional that brings joy to every day – joy that non pet owners cannot imagine!
my thoughts are with you and mr. lovee, and baby and matty. i know you will cherish every moment you have together and make it the best of the best. it is so wonderful that you are able to move your studio outside to be closer to her!
i know it will be hard, but please keep us updated.
hugs to all of you!
I’m so sorry to hear about Baby’s illness, Vanessa. I too have lost my dog a couple of years ago. He was with me since I was 8 years old, he was like a sibling to me, really.
It is incredibly difficult to deal with these situations, so much that even though the temptation is big, we still haven’t even considered having another pet. (though I must confess my heart really really wants to, but it’s such a responsibility)
So I’m just sending you hugs and positive thinking because there’s not much I can say to make it better. Be with Baby. xoxo
I’m thinking of you — simple words but with deep meaning and love.
Oh, Vanessa. My heart is so sad for you and Baby. We lost our own sweetest Cheyanne a few years ago in the same way. Those memories are so bittersweet. You are right to give as much love as you can now. There is no love that matches that we share with our furry babies. Sending heartfelt loves to you.
Oh no! How sad. We lost our own sweetest Cheyanne a few years ago and those memories are so bittersweet. Nothing compares with the love we share with our fur babies. I will think of you in this sad time.
When people ask me do I live with anybody, I saw yes, Mabel. Then I go on to explain she is my cat and just as real and alive as a person to me.
I understand you want to cherish all these moments with Baby. I would too if it was Mabel. I want you to know Mabel and I both send loving and healing thoughts to both of you.
ooh noo 🙁 I am so sorry to hear your Baby is not doing well. I am a huge lover of fur babies. I can’t even imagine how you are feeling right now. Just give her lots of love and snuggles!
Dearest Vanessa,
My heart grieves with you. Baby must be a remarkable love. We suffered with infertility for 10 years and our fat cat Quincy was our fur baby love. He was our child and helped me through years of lost babies. Baby is soooo lucky to have you as a Mama. I am glad you aren’t in the rat race anymore and can take this time to be with Baby. Hold him, kiss him, paint or photograph him…enjoy the time he has remaining and then let him go. We have 4 children now and they ask me to tell them stories about Quincy (our 30 lb. cat). They tell me that he has wings and that he is flying in Heaven. I believe this to be true. Our triplets are 5. They should know; they are fresh from Heaven.
I am praying for you and Mister too.
Hugs,
Rebecca
http://rebeccasrainbowkisses.blogspot.com
I meant to say “her”. Baby is a girl. I’m sorry. rebecca
Dear Vanessa
my heart aches reading this, it reminds me of all the fur baby pain I have ever known. but how nice to have some warning, there is nothing worse than the horrible feeling of thinking back on your behaviour before someone has passed, like you could have cared more.
I wish you beautiful last days and strong memories till you meet again.
take care of your soft vulnerable heart and thankyou for sharing so much…
xxx
sheree
PS. beautiful gypsy art tent and cards xxx
My heart aches for you Vanessa…I am so sorry to hear this sad news, but I know that Baby is much loved and cherished, and that her life has been one of magic and incredible love. Sending you hugs x
So sorry to hear about Baby, I hope she’s not in too much pain.
When I was 16 our doggie left us. This was quite a while ago, back in the day when the insurance guy came once a month to collect. He was there when I found her and screamed for my mom. She came outside and we were all crying. He said “it’s just a dog” and I was so angry because No, she wasn’t JUST a dog. She was part of our family. she had a personality. She knew when my dad was on his way home from work and would sit at the top of the driveway waiting. She was so much MORE than “just a dog”.
Hugs- too busy choking back tears to write anything else.
Vanessa, my heart is breaking for you…having endured the loss of a beloved pet myself, I know just how devastating this kind of diagnosis is.
What a blessing you are able to move your art outdoors to spend time with Baby. As lucky as you feel to have her in your life, I know she feels just as lucky. She’s lived a life overflowing with love.
Sending hugs your way, and hugging my five furkids as well. The time we spend with those we love is just never long enough.
{{{Hugs}}},
~ Carolee
Vanessa, where to begin? At the beginning…my life has given me the opportunity to completely rebuild during the past five years, I’m happier now since time out of mind. Spending your time here on Earth in pursuit of art makes for a life well lived! I wouldn’t change a thing.
I’m an animal person in the worst way, can’t imagine life without my familiars. It is absolutely unbelievable how heartbreaking it is to midwife an animal through death. It hurts so bad, but it is completely worth it isn’t it. Life is short, but boy is it ever good.
Hearts~D
So sad to hear your news.
I don’t have pets but I can totally understand your pain.
Our thoughts are with you and hope these days with Baby are very precious.
xxx
Vanessa I’m so, so sorry to hear this. I’ve had two special dogs and understand the love you can have for a pet. It’s a pure kind of love without the hurt and regretted words that come with all human relationships. I’ve read a quote somewhere that said something to the effect of the price of a good dog is a broken heart. At the moment I’m watching my furry girl get older and I’m starting to realise she won’t be around forever, and it’s such a hard thing to realise.
Baby is a beautiful pup, and I feel like I’ve got to know her through your posts. This post made me sad and teary. Cherish the time you’re spending with her, you’ll be so glad of it later. Having Matty will make the heartache a bit easier to bear- you can’t help but smile when there’s a silly, wriggly young thing bounding around exploring and playing.
Hugs to the humans and furry ones in your little family, take care.
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oh gosh, you brought tears to my eyes. My deepest sympathy to you and your loved ones. Furry or not, our babies are our family, our love. I hope the times she have left with you will be the brightness.
wharmly,
Valerie
Oh, that’s terrible! I understand what this is like. A few months ago, we lost our cat, Midnight, and soon after, our cat Rosie died. I hope you feel better soon.
Hey Sis. Sorry to hear about Baby. No wonder you don’t answer when I call… you are outside! Well, all I can say is this, I am happy for you… I know that sounds strange given the circumstances, but let me explain. You have now known the greatest love ever. I am sorry that Baby has to feel any pain, but she keeps her head up because she knows you love her. Now keep your head up, because she loves you. Douglas sends some hugs and licks.
Sweet Vanessa,
It is hard to type with tears in my eyes, but I wanted to tell you I know how much your heart is aching and will continue to ache. Our fur babies mean the world to us and bring so much into our lives even when they are no longer with us. Your baby will live in your heart forever.
I wish for you Peace and Blessings….you have touched my heart with your words….I send loving reiki to your sweet Baby……….and to you……….
I’ve been thinking of you a LOT these past few days and having been remiss in popping in as I usually did, I wanted to see what was new in Miss Vanessa Land.
I am…so sorry. 🙁 I have 2 puppies and I swear, I dread the day they are no longer with me. They are a part of me…they “get” me.
I have nothing to offer other than my absolute heartfelt love for you and to hope that Baby’s passing will be gentle.
I love you Miss V. You are, as always, in my thoughts. <3
Dearest V~
I have tears running down my face reading about Baby. I know how deep the love is fur a furry one. My life is so full with our five sweet faces here. I know you and Mister Lovee and Matty are comfort to her and each other.
Sending love your way,
LuLu, Babie, Apricot, Tommy, Olivia and Harlow🖤
I heard two quotes recently that seem to apply here and you might enjoy hearing them:
The best things in life are nearest: Breath in your nostrils, light in your eyes, flowers at your feet, duties at your hand, the path of right just before you. Then do not grasp at the stars, but do life’s plain, common work as it comes, certain that daily duties and daily bread are the sweetest things in life.
~Robert Louis Stevenson
and
Who will tell whether one happy moment of love or the joy of breathing or walking on a bright morning and smelling the fresh air, is not worth all the suffering and effort which life implies.
~Erich Fromm
I just saw this post and am so sad by the news about Baby. I wish you and Mr. Lovee peace on the rest of your journey with her.
Oh Vanessa! Hugs to you and Baby! I am just now catching up on your blog. But dogs are fab and they are family.
And about writing about your life, I love your blog for the art but also for how artfully you do write about your life. It inspires, and reminds me that we all have our ups and downs.
i’m sorry Baby is ill. you will find many many readers have gone through this very thing with their beloved fur babies. it is so painful and upsetting, but please know we are all right beside you having gone through the same thing. we know your pain and understand it deeply.
Sad but lovely post. Hugs to you all